Bad Sunday Ever... (27/12/09)

This date was bad day for me.

First in afternoon, when I wanted to back to PJ from Cameron,

I have been waiting for half an hour, the bus only coming...

and the worst thing is... no seat for me...

Fine! I was sitting at the place that people putting the luggages and bags (at the back).

It was hard to sit... and hot...

On the way...

Suddenly I felt uncomfortable... stomach ache... (omg)

I tried to endure it,it was lucky...

After that, my dear know I am so exhausted in the bus,

and came to fetch me back, as usual... we went for dinner and night market,

but still because of stomach ache and back home early...

The worst thing was happened...

My dear found my blog, but I know one day it will happen.

I called my dear...

no arguments, no quarrels...

But I can feel the feeling of my dear.

However, now has been settled every things...
but... sometime things is happened and cannot turn it back..
Hope everything will be fine in the future.

To Love and To Be Loved

The one you like, might not like you,

the one like you, you might not like...

What this call? Fate?

Sigh...

You keep asking who like me? Who I like?

But... you don't know how hurt I am,

I don't care how many admirer I have,

I only care about you.

I am willing to take the risk, just for you.

Seriously,

I really like to see your smiling face...

Although very stupid or nonsense action,

I would do, just wanted to make you smile.

No matter how many word I wrote,

no matter how much I cared about you,

you will never know, and never want to know...

Have you ever thought about one day,

someone tell you they like you?

What is your reaction?

Maybe you will be happy to hear that,

but... if that was me?

Obviously,

Whoever around us,

easily get to know that I like you...

For you...

We are just being closer...

For me...

The more hope I have, the greater the disappointment.

Time passed quickly,

unconsciously I have like you for half a year.

Although not a long time,

I am happy with the time being with you.

Start Changing...

These days,

I'm notice that...

The worlds changed...

Am I oversensitive?

Maybe...

This semester start changing already,

I can't really imagine how next semester going on...

Is very sad to see those scene that show "We are only friend before"

Only before...

Everyone got their own work to do...

When we are free, but they might not free,

same things happen when they are free.

Before this, I was thinking...

"Oh Yeah, I am not alone now!"

"Got more friends to talk to!"

But now, doesn't look like what I was thinking...

Now, what is the different with my previous life?

All the friends will become strange...

Few year later, won't contact each other at all...

That was what my experiences before...

Someone I Cared...

Someone I Worried...

Someone I Like...

Someone I Love...

All would miss in my life...

I am already less friend,

I am already feeling lonely...

BUT... WHO CARE?

Love you, but not necessarily to have you

These days,

I changed my thought...

Like or Love a person, is not necessarily to have them.

Yeah...

Can't have them, is sad,

but think properly, and think in different way.

A couple,

no freedom,

will have quarrel with each other,

jealousness each other,

there will be a lot of trouble.

Is that what we wanted?

If we keep our relationship now,

I'll feel happy, when saw them happy,

at least I can see their smiling face appear,

at least I can play around with them...

No need to worry too much...

But will miss them...

no people share the happyness or sadness is the worst.

Remember this, yours life will be easier

Don't mind the person who is bad for you:

In your life, no one shall have the obligation to treat you good.

For those who treat you good,

in addition to cherish and gratitude them, please also be alert,

because what they do definitely with a reason,

they treat you good,

may not because of they like you,

don't be too quick to take as true friends.

No one is irreplaceable, nothing is must have:

Through this, people around you no longer want you,

perhaps lost the love in the world,

you should understand, this is not a big deal.

Life is short, today you are wasting your life,
tomorrow you will find life have been away from you:

Therefore, the earlier you cherish life, you'll enjoy life longer.

It's better to enjoy life early than hope to have longevity.

The world does not have love with the "most":
Love is a instantaneous feeling,

this feeling will definitely change at any time, and mood.

If your so-called love leaves you, please wait patiently,

let time to develop, let the heart slowly precipitate,

Don't too longing love of beauty,

not exaggerated brokenhearted of sadness.

Although many successful people have not many education,

It not means you don't study hard, will certainly succeed:
The knowledge you learned, is the weapon you have.

Human, can start from scratch, but can't be unarmed.

Your parents wouldn't ask you to support their remaining life,

they also wouldn't support your remaining life:
When you grow up to be independent,

their responsibilities have already finished.

In future, you should take the Bus or Benz,

eat shark fin or vermicelli,

that is depending on you.

You can ask yourself faithful, but can't ask others to faithful,

you can ask yourself treat people good,

but not to expect people to treat you good:

How do you treat them, doesn't mean they will treat you the same,

if you can't see through this,

you will only ACTS more unnecessary troubles.

Fate『Friends』- S1T1 Coursemate

Friends...

How we met?

How we become a good friends?

What made you so important in my life?

Why God put us together, but seperated us soon?

Some friends, just know a year,

but they will remember you forever.

Some friends, known for years,

but after several years were separated,

They'll never remember who you are.

Chia Yeong How

As they said "Don't know he is stupid or just lazy"

My first impression  was "He was clever!"

Because he seem like know many things...
Nevertheless... I'm wrong...
We did help him for his homework as well,
but he was likes "Give him an inch and he will take a yard"

Sometimes, when we chat with him,
he'll reply some irrelevance stuff...

I'm speechless with him...

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Chng, Alex, Big Boss, Wern Chern

Sorry for no photo with them...
They always are one gang in our class...
Whatever program they have, we wouldn't join.
Whatever program we have, they wouldn't join too.
It is funny?
We are inside the same class,
but separated into few different groups.

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Mik Wong Poh Wai

He quite funny actually,

but just had some bad habits...

Don't speak ill of others behind them =x

 

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Yee Ling

At the beginning, I thought she was Malay.

Wearing sunglasses, carrying a bag... Cool!

My first impression was "She was friendly!"

When she saw me still greeted me with a smile...

After we know each other better, I know that she was helpful.

When she doesn't understand, she will be asked many questions.

Some of our classmate afraid she asked some questions they might not understand.

Its Scary >"<

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Cristina Chew Jin Yin

Pretty Girl =D

We didn't chat more...

because she was pure English educated,

but she learned Chinese also.

I'm pleasure same group with her before.

Actually, to be her good friend is worth...

"Can improve my English"...LOL

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Leong Chong Chern

First come to my mind is..."He like OL"
Everyday can't away from them...
He has cleanliness...
That is why he likes to live alone.
He demanded perfection,
Once he can't make it, he wouldn't have mood to continue.

Sometimes he is capricious/stubborn...
Never thought of other people's feelings...
Still we can be a good friend :D

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Tan Chiew Yean

She and Mart always be together,

like a couple...

I'm always can't remember what is her name,

until term two,

We have much more things to talk to...

Kind of good girl, hardwork(actually nothing to do at home XD)

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Mart Yeok Chin

Another pretty girl in our class,
but totally different type.

First impression was "She and Yean very quiet"
When we have class, she didn't talk much to us ...

Well, after know her better,
I felt like she was friendly too.

And...
She likes to shop alone...

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Daniel Fu

Gangster!!! LOL

Thats was my first impression...

But that was only outward appearance.

Since first day of the class, we already know each other,

because of the fundamental drawing class.

From first term, we already become a good friend,

he always said my English like "fxxx" to encourage other.

Moreover, he become unpopular in the second term,

just because his bad habits.

If asked someone to list down his bad habits,

I think that should be many =x

Well, he will be fly to Australia soon.

Just hope he can enjoy his life there.

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Loh Chia Hou

Game Wacko! LOL

He quite quiet, but when he speak...

It like throwing you a BOOM!

Secondly, if you treat him a lunch or whatever for FREE!

Then, take him to sell also he wouldn't care,

and just said yes to you.>.<

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Victor Foong Sai Ho

Another Game/Movie Wacko!

At beginning, he was very quiet,

Come to college alone, going back home alone.

But, when inside the msn's conversation he can talk many.

After he forced to become a member of our family,

he is not alone now (i guess XD)

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Aam (Mohd Nizam)

The only Malay in our class.

 At the beginning, we always had lunch together,

but I can't afford everydays KFC, so I leave him.

His mind only "Fashion"

Everyday Fashion, Fashion, Fashion...

If you asked him to do others homework instead of Fashion,

he will just said "I'm lazy, no mood to do that!" XD

He likes to be a model too,

you can saw him often take photo for himself.

Sometimes, pity him also...

The only Malay,

Can't follow us to eat Chinese foods,

alone to had lunch.

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Danielle Liew

Paid so much money just for passing time =x

This is what she said in 3D class...

Hmm...

Not much impression with her >.<

The only thing I know was,

she don't like to do homework,

and always make it last minute (like me =x)

If I not mistaken,

She like photograph and to be a model XD

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Priscilla Wong Yin Ee

Ganas Girl!!!

Don't provoke her, otherwise you will die very badly.

First impression "Don't like her at all!"

Because when I first met her,

she gave me the feeling that she likes to show off.

In addition, the first time we chat in msn's conversation,

she said can't understand my English =_="

I like being instigated.

But...

After know her better,

I notice that, she was very nice! (but still GANAS!)

Sadly I can't help her when our first presentation.

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Andrenne Chung Mei Ling

Pretty Girl also =)

She is changeable...

Can be funny, can be ganas, can be crazy as well.

Don't know that was good or bad. >.<

But, I have no effect,

we still are good friend~

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Felicia Tan Phaik Imm

The cutest girl in our class,

as I know, she got many pursuers in the class.

But my first impression with her was "She was like a slave"

around the entire girl.

Mean she not prominent at all...

Is actually different,

She was helpful, friendly and voluble.

She likes hang out with friends,

playing around.

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Frankie Cheah Pang Fei

My roommate,

He kind of quiet person, don't like to talk.

Sometimes, he was very blur,

until what he did also can't be sure...

And...

Sometimes, when you talk to him,

he will be stunned moment then respond to you.

And...

Sometimes, he was stubborn,

whatever I told, he wouldn't listen,

until someone give the same criticism, he just to listen.

(After he saw this, might tell me "got meh?", might be ng song later =x)

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Akito Gan Chew Sang

My Daughter!(but not girl =.=)

He not a girl, but he likes a girl... LOL

He likes a ropes, connected the whole class together.

Without him, we wouldn't know our classmate so quickly...

Without him, our class is less joy...

Without him, I will be everyday stay at home and doing nothing...

Without him, I wouldn't know what is love and care...

But...

Do we still have chance to fun together?

Our class will become more quiet,

and...

less the voice...

less the sound that call me "Dad"

I will again become lonely again?

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Eric Leong Jing Xiang

The person who are most difficult to know.

We took more than half term to know him.

Eventually he was forced to become a member of our family,

but still not join us for any program.

So... We called him "Cold Blooded" X]

At beginning, he only talks to his friend,

Come to class, sit with his friend,

after class, went back with his friend,

and never join us for lunch.

The reason he not joins us, and we didn't invite him

is because he talks in English, and not understand Mandarin.

After we know each other, no one dared near him,

because most of them can't understand, what he was talking.

Even if his talk with us, we only for his smirking.

The funny things is,

after he tell the story, everyone in the nod,

but after he away from us, I asked them what he talking about,

Everyone replied, "I don't know!" LOL

He was very hardwork, forbid others for help,

and he don't like group work.

Won't simply waste money.

Endangered good boy... who want? LOL...

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Family Tree

(Father[Me],Mother[Frankie],Son[Eric],

Daughter[Akito] and Daughter's husband[Victor])

Suddenly, I'm became father...

Suddenly, I got one daughter, one son and... a wife...

Is a bit weird, but good things is "I am not alone"

Whatever program we had, they'ld participate.

(except "that cold blood" always ignore us =x)LOL

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S1T1's Group C

Jeannie, Daphne , Rehnu, Arpana, Melissa,

Alice (not inside the photo)

Not know them well,

Soonest we will be a group of good friend =)

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S1T2 (Group B)

All above, might be lost some memories,
I can't even remember it.
Since my brain was empty now,
do remind me, if I missed out any happy memories with you all!

We just finished our first semester,
somethings are going to be change soon...

Yesterday's Dream

3.30a.m, It is very late...

but... I couldn't sleep...

so... I thought a lot...

At First...

The shadow of you was automatically come to my mind...

But... These times, I didn't thought about "I can't have you"...

I'm thought about when we became a couple...

It is sweet...

Holding your hand, when we have any outing...

Kissing your cheek, when we are apart...

Hugging your waist, when we sit together...

Having food together, living together...

Study together, working together...

Travel the world together...

Yea... I knew that is only dreams...

But... It is happy when I thought about you and me...

I will cherish it, since we have not much time together...

Secondly,

My previous life...

I started to think that I'm very naive when I was young...

Even now, I still think that I'm not mature at all...

How naive I am?

When I was Standard 1, there was a pretty girl at our class...

She is generally recognized as the pretty girl...

Just because of these reason... I started to think I like her...

At first, I bought a cheap pencil box and pack nicely,

but... not dare to give her... (my whole life is so timid)

Still remember that is my Moral teacher help to pass it to her...

but... she open it, and asked someone to pass it back to me...

That was my first time being rejected xD

but I had no feeling at all...

When I was Standard 2, the same thing happened to me...

Same case, but with different pretty girl...

but these time I didn't make any action, and just told my friends I like her... Thats all...

Now, the girl already married, and had a baby...

I don't think I know what love is when I was young,

even now also not so sure...

Why we need love in our life?

Until I'm Standard 5...

I'm started to become famous at the school...

Started to have some pursuers...

But... I rejected them and run away from them...

Maybe because of the feeling of jealous,

my friends are in love with their girl friend...

So... I tried to find a target...

Finally, I get it, and together with her for few months...

but... after that... I met my "First".(Confused xD)

I tried to find some reason to discard her...

but... the same things happen to me, being discarded...

so... I can't stand alone, and tried to find her back...(After you all saw these, someone will kill me >"<)

The similar thing happened for my second love...

Discarded, wanted it back...

Thought until here... I knew I'm really stupid and fickle-minded...

Someone might love you forever, but you rejected/discarded...

Someone might only play around with you, but you put all your efforts there...

Life... Is complicated...

But... take it easy, you will be enjoy it...

How many people can enjoy their life without any worries/upset?

Do we really cherish what you have now?

WHATEVER HAPPENS, HAPPENS FOR A REASON

1. I love you not because of who you are, 

    but because of who I am when I am with you.

2. No one is worth your tears, and the one who is, won't
     make you cry.

3. Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want
     them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all 
     they have.


4. A true friend is someone who reaches for your hand and
     touches your heart.


5. The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right
     beside them knowing you can't have them.


6. Never frown, even when you are sad, because you never
     know who is falling in love with your smile.


7. To the world you may be one person, but to one person
     you may be the world.


8. Don't waste your time on a man/woman, who isn't willing
     to waste their time on you.

9. Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before
     meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet
     the person, we will know how to be grateful.

10. Don't cry because it is over, smile because it happened.

11. There's always going to be people that hurt you so what
       you have to do is keep on trusting and just be more 
       careful about who you trust next time around.

12. Make yourself a better person and know who you are
       before you try and know someone else and expect
       them to know you.

13. Don't try so hard, the best things come when you least
       expect them to.

Keep this for your life...

Should I Give Up?

After spent whole night to read through yours blog,

from the oldest post until the newest post...

I found out that...

99.99% I can't have you, even I tried to improve myself...

last time I always wrote "I can't have you",

without any prove, it just I'm no courage when facing you...

Now...

I knew the answer clearly...

This is not I'm no efforts, and not my personality problem...

Not because of I'm not your type, and not we don't know each other...

What else?

I don't think you will change your mind...

Since I knew, you are a stubborn person...

Stubborn with something you think you are right,

Stubborn with some theoretical problems,

Stubborn with left and right, up and down...

Should I give up?

Since I knew, I don't have the chance together with you...

If not...

I will feel exhausting when chat with you...

I will feel grieving when look at you...

I will feel helpless when you play around with me...

I'm going to crazy soon...

Although I wanted to give up,

but... I can?

Want to forget a person is not that easy...

Can't Be Hurt

There are some people...
They are stupid...
Seems very fickle minded, but actually very loyal.
Seems very strong, but actually whoever also fragile than...
Seems very happy, but who know the sadness behind them?

Actually many time...
they are self-imposed torture...
Although they love you,
they rather painful dead...
They choose to left,
and let the tears optional unbridled...

Actually many time...
They are easy to understand...
They scared alone,
because they will fantasize when they were alone,
and remembered that story which was no ending,
remembered the familiar face...
They will feel very insecure when they were alone...
Their request was always very low,
they just want the person they like accompany them...

Actually many times...
They are very sensitive,
a expression or an action, will let them jumpy for a day...
Don't let them to panic, don't let them sad,
if you love them...

Actually many times...
They are sad, but they are not sentimental,
its because some scene which can easily recalls their mixes memories...
They like to use words to compose their mood,
there is the only way they express themselves...

Actually many times...
They are always living in the past...
They are always finding some familiar feeling...
Although they agreed to forget the past,
they don't know... it's already mind deeply...

Actually many times...
They fear to see someone sweet,
they are not jealous,
just feel like it's similar with their past,
then fall in their memories,
until past hurt his consciousness awakens...

Actually many times...
They are very persistent...
Sometimes don't understand what they insist on...
They are await for no ending story,
or waiting for more harm?

They are stupid,
If they fall in love...
They will like a doll,
let any were swinging...

They have too many shortcomings...
Bad temper, willful, sensitive suspicious...
Either not near their... Either treat them well...
Because their heart crispy very...

Can't be hurt!

Thats... ME!

Name Test - Result

Yay~ I got the new name already... but have to choose either one of it...
I like 余紋樂 more than 余汶洛... might be choose that as my new name~

余紋樂

天格 -> 8  (金)
人格 -> 17 (金)
地格 -> 25 (土)
外格 -> 16
總格 -> 32

金金土->容易成功,達到目的,身心亦健全,但不可自信過剛倔強,若和氣待人,必獲成功發展更能獲得權威與顯達.

余汶洛

天格 -> 8  (金)
人格 -> 15 (土)
地格 -> 18 (金)
外格 -> 11
總格 -> 25

金土金->平生大都幫助他人,但不可太好幫助他人而拖累自己,本亦可順利成功,達成愿望,身體健壯,福壽雙全.

11->草木逢春之象,穩健踏實,獲得眾望,大富大貴之數,有再興家運之勢.(大吉)
15->福壽圓滿之象,溫和謙恭,能受長者提攜,成大事.(大吉)
16->權高綠重之象,集名望於一身,能獲尊仰,富貴榮華之數,忌倨傲,戒溺女色.(大吉)
17->權高之象.權位高而固執,缺包容力,易失人利,若善自矯正,福祿常伴.(吉)
18->權勢浩大之象計劃之事大抵有成,能排除障礙,但自尊心過強,凡事三思(吉)
25->好辯領導之象,個性倔強但本性敏銳,長於口才,然易生口舌是非,凡事小心.(大吉)
32->幸運鴻福之象,龍困淺灘,一旦風雲際會,便可一躍升天,多管閑事為其缺點(吉)

The More Intimate We Are The More Fragile My Heart Is

These days, we are  getting more close to each other...

These should be happy...

but... do i really feel happy?

Seriously,

The movement I am together with you are happy,

but... the mood becomes very down after that...

and... will think much more negative things...

Because,

I know... I can't have you...

I know... I can't know you better...

I know... In the near future, you will be away from me...

But,

I wish can know you better,

and know what is in your mind now.

Do you have same feeling with me?

or else you totally didn't think about love in your life?

I am minded every single words you wrote(excepted those i can't understand)...

and single things you spoken...

Wish... always never come true...

just hide myself and cry alone...

Don't worry, be curious...

This is our Final Project for Design Theory, with the theme "Don't worry, be curious...

I did it with my teammate, which is Victor and Frankie.

The idea was came to me when they were talking about the "Stop Motion"

After that, I am thinking the whole story of the stop motion with some of their suggestion/idea...

Yea... we have fun during the time, and almost laugh from the beginning until the end, but the whole story is fine, just the out come is not like what I am imagines.

The whole story that in my mind is quite funny actually, but we faced a lot of problem to make it out such as no idea how to use photoshop, got argument with each other, computer keep coming out problem when using the movie maker, a lot of things we can't make it as what we wanted.

Another thing is that we can't really find the background as what we wanted. In addition, is the song that we used. Actually, we wanted to get some funny song, but we couldn't get it since we are lack of time.

I had confident to say that, if I can do it again... It will be better! Moreover, I will re-do it as my own collection and I will post it here again to compare it.

Yea... now you can enjoy the Stop Motion~

Name Test

(男)   筆畫   五行
 余       7         土
 文       4         水
 樂      15        火

天格 -> 8  (金)
人格 -> 11 (木)
地格 -> 19 (水)
外格 -> 16 (土)
總格 -> 26 (土)

天格8分析  ->(八卦之数)八卦之数,乾坎艮震,巽离坤兑,无穷无尽.(吉)
             天格数是先祖留传下来的,其数理对人影响不大.
人格11分析 ->(旱苗逢雨)万物更新,调顺发达,恢弘泽世,繁荣富贵.(吉)
             人格数又称主运,是整个姓名的中心点,影响人的一生命运.
地格19分析 ->(多难)风云蔽日,辛苦重来,虽有智谋,万事挫折.(凶)
             地格数又称前运,影响人中年以前的活动力.
外格16分析 ->(厚重)厚德载物,安富尊荣,财官双美,功成名就.(吉)
             外格数影响命运之灵活力.
總格26分析 ->(变怪)变怪之谜,英雄豪杰,波澜重叠,而奏大功.(半吉)
             总格又称后运,影响人中年至晚年的命运.


对三才数理的影响(天人地)
成功运被压抑,不能伸张,易失败流转,病难,甚至有陷于短命或顽症之虑.(凶)

对基础运的影响  (人地)
一时虽能顺利发展,但不时可能有衰亡,疾病的症兆.(凶)

对成功运的影响  (天人)
命运被压抑,导致不良的结果,易得脑部疾病和神经衰弱,呼吸器官等难治之症.(凶)

对人际关系的影响(人外)
好奇心强,但不求实干,如不自轻心,则可望成功.言行有信的人,不会有大过失.多患近视,皮肤病,不宜与人合作.(平)


人格11有以下数理暗示-> 温和运
地格19有以下数理暗示-> 败财运
外格16有以下数理暗示-> 首领运、财富运、双妻运、温和运
總格26有以下数理暗示-> 艺能运、败财运

总评及建议：
   你的名字起得不算理想,如果可能的话,不妨尝试改变一下,也许会有事半功
   倍之效取此名 需谨慎处理财富

姓名评分：71


昨天去看了那算命师...他说的不无道理~
在家不听父母话，因为他们无力压我...
在外被朋友压=.="(意识是容易被利用，须保护自己)
除了几个较好的朋友,其他都很少话说,因我较静什么都收在心里...
就算好朋友,住在一起后,久而久之也会没话说 XD

所以呢~我的新名字多两个星期就会有咯~
呵呵~

❖花貧公子❖

這是個人無聊所寫的小說...故事關于小翔的經歷與他的愛情故事...
注:故事內容涉及BL,不能接受BL的...對不起,這篇小說不適合你...

人物介紹:

主角
人物名稱:洛子翔(小翔)
年齡:20歲
出身:漢洛麗雅(一個山上小村莊)
性格:偶爾懶惰,認真做事時積極,開朗,花心(能同時喜歡多個人)
自我簡介:大家好，我是小翔！我喜歡吃蔬菜水果，山上的小孩多健康^^v

配角
人物名稱:趙梓柏(小柏)
年齡:19歲
出身:克里拉鎮(漢洛麗雅山下的繁榮小鎮)
性格:孤僻,勤勞,認真,有點傻氣
自我簡介:要認識我,繼續看小說就好...(話不多說=.=")

人物名稱:魏仁杰(小杰)
年齡:16歲
性格:聰明,成熟,容易發悶
自我簡介:我是杰,有什么要問就問,別拖拖拉拉的...

人物名稱:姜添豪(小姜)
年齡:18歲
性格:溫柔,孩子氣,聰明,勤勞
自我簡介:大家都叫我小姜,我也不懂為什么他們不叫我小豪...

人物名稱:鳳偉雄(大雄)
年齡:29歲
性格:大男人,高智慧,怪脾氣
自我簡介:今天吃舍~?你還沒答我,要吃舍?你到底聽見沒??!!(開始不爽)

其他
每一个重要人物，我都会在这里更新...
人物還未確定,隨時更改...
希望有人能幫我想些角色名稱...男的最好(BL小說嘛...)

第一章即将来临...敬请期待...

Come from different planet

Everytime, when I fall in love...

There won't be any miracles happen...

Even though i like them, but we seem like come from different planet...

I was wonder...

We have different thought,

for me... It is only love in my mind,

but for them... Im not sure...

We have different interest,

what I like, they don't like,

what they like, I may not like,

but I am trying to join them...

You know...?

I am tried my best to improved myself,

the reason why I do that...

It is all because of you...

What song you like, I just tried to accept it...

What activities you like, I tried to pratice it...

But... seem like i changed for nothing...

If we got chance to be together...

will this relationship be able to last long?

Even thought now with my dear also the same,
Im seriously do not know what they are thinking...
Am I stupid? or else we just need time to understand each other?

Do You Like Me?

Who will u think of when you are lonely

每個人孤單的時候,都會在想不同的東西...

你呢?

我...不喜歡孤單的感覺...

在我孤單,覺得很無助的時候...

我...想起了你...

想你,即把自己變得更無助...更加的寂寞...

而你又知道么?

每一次想起你的時候...

我都認不住的想要流淚...但我不能...

因為...我知道...我是不可能擁有你...

想到這里,我的心是多么的沉重...

我能想你到多久?喜歡你到多久?

我知道...我自己是多么的花心...

但是...如果有機會...

我也想...一心一意的去對你...

但是,我有這個機會么?

想到這里,我的心又再次受創...

這種感覺要在我心里呆多久?

誰也不知道...

就連我自己也不懂...

每當我心里有很多說不出的傷痛時...

看臺灣愛情連續劇是我的首選...

看愛情戲會令我覺得好過些...

我就是這樣熬過來的...

Everyone will think different, when they are lonely.

How about you?

I don't like the lonely feeling...
When i feel lonely and helpless,
I think of you...
Miss you... namely oneself more helpless and more lonely...

You know?
Every time when I think of you...
I feel my tears is coming out from my eyes... But I can't...
Because... I know... I can't have you...
Thought of here, my heart is so heavy.

How long can I miss you into? How long can I like you into?
I know... I am fickle-minded...
But... If I have the chances.
I want to undivided attention to you...
But do I have the chance?
Thought of here, my heart wound again.

  
How long do this feeling stay in my heart?
Who know?
Even myself also won't know.
Whenever I have these feeling,
I like to watch Taiwan drama which related to love.
It makes me feel better.
That is how I stay until now...

I'm Jealous

I'm jealous,

Everything in my life...
Everything that happen to other...

I'm jealous,

when others people did the work better than me...
asked myself why can't make it be better?
I have no talent on any work, any subject, everything...
It is the reason why I can't make it?
It is that I'm not hardworking enough?

I'm jealous,

when my good friends are closed to others...
they got so much thing to talk about...
I'm scared of my friends ignored me...
It is I'm too care of them?
Is it that im afraid to be alone and couldn't afforf to lose them?

I'm jealous,

when someone I liked ignored me but go to others...
I jealous cause they got alot of friends that i'm don't know...
This is what I'm jealous most about...
This is what I'm care most about...
What can I do with them?

I'm jealous,

because i'm selfish and emulative person...
I don't like the feeling of lose...
I don't like the feeling of lonely...
I don't like the feeling of unrequited love...

☆Missing You★

I like you,

but you don't know how much that i like you

I miss you,

but you can't even feel that im missing you

Every time when i look at you,

it was somethings that attracted me

You don't know how i felt,

you not even know how hurt when you are ignored me

I'm not dare to find you,

what i can do is just talk much when we are together,

or else just find some excuse to chat with you

I wish to...

together with you as long as possible...

Hope...

you can understand me better...

Miss you so much... Hugs...

♂暗♥恋♀- Unrequited Love

這是2008年發生的...算起來也不算久...
我把日期寫出來是因為我要給自己記得...


最近很烦...这世上能让我伤心,烦恼,开心,享尽甜 酸苦辣的也就只有爱情.而且最讨厌的是暗恋!就不懂为什么我只有暗恋的份,却拿不起勇气去表白.明明就有他的电话号码,就是不敢把信息传过去; 明明他根本都不懂我的电话号码,就是怕他会打过来问我是谁;明明是那么的近,却把他想得很遥远.我到底是怎么了?为什么我就如此胆小?我不想再过毫无结果 的暗恋生活,暗恋真的很辛苦...

24/10/2008 - 今天我正打算去某地方,正当我到那里时...我...看见了他,可能是夜晚吧,所以我都没什么注意他.当我走进店里时,里边就只有我一个客人,感觉好尴 尬...不久,他就从外面走了进来.他样子不怎么样(因为我看人都从样子看起),当他来问我东西时,我才认真的看了他一下下...真的不怎么样!!!但 是...就有一股魅力吸引着我.我一直偷偷的看着他,脸颊耳朵不仅红了起来,感觉好热.可惜...见他的时间只有短短的半小时...我跟他拿了名片(电话 号码的来源)就回家去了.
在那之后,我開始習慣性的每天假裝經過他的店,偷偷的望他一眼都好~但是...我知道這樣下去也不會有什么結果.開始有點心疼...

03/12/2008 - 興奮的回到家,準備還一切開始出發~就可能太過興奮,還沒出家門耳朵臉頰就紅紅熱熱的...走著走著,滿腦子都是他.到了...我蠻期待的打開了門,但既 看不到他的蹤影,心里不禁失望了一下下(雖然知道他不可能不在).當我坐下來的時候(東張西望),后來他還是出現了,而且還小笑了一下下.心里亂想,他 笑...是因為我又來光顧嗎?還是...原本很多話想說,但嘴有如千金重,想說...卻開不了口...真的很想把自己打一頓...怎么自己那么沒用啊?他 不就在我的眼前么?卻什么都做不到說不出!見他的時間,還是那么的短...又是時候離開了...我...不舍得...但是,要怪只能怪自己的無能那么的沒 用...
已經兩個月了...我還是那么的想他,還是無時無刻的去偷偷的望他....有沒有人能告訴我能怎么做.有!都是叫我打電話給他或信息他...但我都做不到...已經不懂如何是好了~

17/01/2009 - 一个半月没见到他了...今天我又在光顾了他.我今天，没有以前的兴奋，没有以前的冲动...只是有想见他的想法！我已知道，我跟他是不可能的了... 但，我还带着一丝的希望进了去~今天跟以往不一样，平时他最多只是笑笑而已。今天不一样的地方就是...他跟我打招呼了，感觉就像我是他的熟客一样。我不 懂该兴奋好还是怎么样...从他口中得知，那间店是他跟一个异性partner所开的...当时听了即感觉有点失望，很想放弃的感觉。过后我却从他手下口 中得知，他们只是partner，却不是情侣...感觉松了一口气+少许开心。而且这次是我跟他谈话最多的一次，从而得知一些关于他的事情~时间又这样过 去了...我自个儿跑了去吃晚餐，完了就回家~没想到回去時经过他的店，他看到我还很热情的打招呼。我不懂该开心还是怎么样了...可能...我跟他有缘 既無份吧！能再见他的时间不多，以后还有没有机会还是个不知数~

14/03/09 - 我还是再次光顾...这次只是带着爱慕者的心情跑了进去。还有，今天特别之处就是我的爱人载我去(至于為什么我會那么快有另一春?繼續看我別的帖子 吧~)~今天的他，一直往外看...好像在等着什么经过似的。我也没多管，这次的话也不多...可能是已经有了爱人的关系吧~对他的喜欢，已经慢慢的减少 了很多。以前的我问过自己一个问题...如果他突然向我表白，我会 选择现在的爱人...还是他...以前很矛盾，很想选择他，但又会很对不起喜欢我的愛人...但今天的我，就算给我选多少次，我都会选现在的爱人！就把他留做我的愛慕者~
到这天为止~以后都不会再更新了，把心放在现在的他会更好吧~再见了~


我的暗戀經歷,即是那么短短的幾個月...是我花心么?善變?我自己也不知道...
非常的討厭自己,為什么就不能一心一意的愛一個人...
也許...我的他...還沒出現吧...
現在...又有別的暗戀對象了...我...到底是不是真的了解什么叫愛?

♫我的過去♫ - My Past

這是N年前的事...

在那個時候，真正喜歡過的只有兩個人。但都是沒結果的愛情，真的無力再去愛別人了～

我的初戀
對他算是一見鐘情吧.剛認識的時候,我們聊很多...甚至很快就成了好朋友,我們 每天通電話,有聊不完的話題,一天聊大概3-4個小時.覺得很開心,沒想到那么快能認識到他,而且還是感情不錯的.過了一段時間,我當了他哥哥...很想說...我不想只當你哥,要當你男朋友!但沒這個勇氣,怕說了就會連朋友都做不了.我就是那么的懦弱...

有次他失戀,哭了...我就跑了過去,安慰他.可能就因為這樣吧,他覺得我對他很好,就對我有好感吧~有一次,我就在信息暗示了我對他的愛意,沒想到他對我也有好感(也許是對他很好,打動了他吧),就這樣我們就開始在一起了.每天都黏在一起,每天都通電話,不然就sms...總之就是一天沒對方的消息都不能,這就是所謂的熱戀期?在一起時,真的很開心.可能是初戀的關系,我把所有感情不顧一切都放在這段愛情里.時間久了,他開始覺得我煩,粘他,沒有新鮮感(可能).開始對我冷了下來,對我的事不怎么想去了解了.那時候,我已經察覺他已經改變了.直到有一天,當他不在的時候,那么巧他沒拿手機...我拿起了他的手機,看了他的信息,竟然...我猜得沒錯,他果然跟另一個人告白!!!

我傷心極了,但我還不死心的希望他會不離開我...我等...我一直改變我自己,故意在他面前出現,但他都無動于衷...我等,等了好久...一年過去...我開始失望了,不再抱有期望,再過回我單身的生活.自從被他拋棄后,我對任何愛情再也不信任,也不會認真的對待.花了很久很久(大概兩年)的時間,才把他從我腦海里抹去,剩下的就是我們的回憶~但是...當我想要過回自己的生活的時候,電話響了...(無名信息)我跟他聊了幾封的信息,但他不怎么愿意告訴我他的身份...最后被我逼他說"你不告訴我,那我跟你聊天也都沒意義"...他才告訴我他的身份.他竟然找我了,也許還有想在一起的意識!我很失望地望著那信息想"你早一年找我的話,那該多好",但我嘴里都停不了游戲游戲...每當他找我,問我在做什么的時候,我都說我在游戲中...他竟然你說"電腦!電腦!電腦!現在電腦比較重要?"o_O"看了這信息...火就來了...我一句"当然是电脑重要,至少它不会伤害我".從此就沒他的消息了~

因為事情都過了有段時間,所以我記得的只有這些~

過后的日子，就變得很悶很無聊~就在想:"別人都在戀愛,我也想找個人陪",就因為這樣而開始找了~當中有過很多過眼云煙的無聊愛情.

我的次戀

直到有一天，跟朋友聊天的時候...無意中聊到了他！一時興起，就找借口從朋友中拿到了他的電話號碼。起初他沒回我的信息，有點失望。但是過了不久才知道他 是因為有些事情才不能回復我信息，我等到他完事后我又再次的寄信息去給他。“嗶嗶”他回信了！沒想到...我無意中說出口的話竟能打動到他...我們就這樣開始了。我們開始我們的約會，雖然很久才能見一次,但是當時我的感覺全回來了。抱著他，就覺得自己好幸福哦。但是...事情往往就是不會如你所愿。也許我們刚认识就成了情侶，話題不多，能說的也不多。我開始覺得這樣下去不是辦法...開始厭倦這樣的日子，每天有或沒話題 都要跟他信息談天。拿起電話:

“哈咯！”雙方都靜靜不出聲...

“為什么不說話”其中一方問...

“不懂要說什么嘛”另一方答...

每天的通話就這樣，但就算是這樣...他都會很開心每天不遲到的信息和通話，他也不會覺得厭倦，也不埋怨些什么。最可惡的就是我自己，卻偏偏覺得被纏著，沒自由很不想這樣。到后來...擺脫不了這種感覺，最后跟他坦白的說了“不然我們分開一下，讓我靜一靜”。他聽了后，哭了...打了通電話過來：“為什么？”當時我覺 得很心疼，但又擺脫不了那些感覺，就坦白地告訴了他。他還說了一句“我會等你”

過后的日子，我又一個人了...當中還是有跟他聯絡，但是都是罵架收場。日子一天一天的過，那些感覺終于消失了。每當我看到目標的時候，腦中突然會浮現他的影子。而且目標都跟他很像。慘了...才發覺原來...我還是喜歡他！我又厚著臉皮去找他聊天，一點一點的暗示著他。但最后還是罵架收場。直到有一天，在某地方 看見了他...但幾乎都不認得他。他變了！我就再次信息他，還好...沒有罵架了。我忍不了心里對他掛念，開口對他表白了...但是得到的結果就是... “對不起，我不知道要給你什么反應”聽了這句話后，心很疼。雖然他不回我信息，但是我還是一天一封的寄過去。

直到有一天，收到他的一些消息。就想到了個壞點子，打算用激漲法使他回我信息。不料，他真的回我了，但是被罵得很慘。結果弄巧反拙...我還是每天不斷的寄信息過去，直到現在半封都沒回我。我真的很后悔，后悔自己拋棄了他，后悔自己對他所做的一切。可是世上沒后悔可言，后悔莫及！我覺得好累...無力再去爭了...我知道...這一直以來都是自己的錯,我不能怨他為什么不能在接受我...

我只能默默的祝福他。只要他過的開心就好，希望他找到懂得珍惜他的人。無論他原不原諒我，我都希望他能把我們的回憶留著！也许放手才是真正解脫的方法~

(这些事情已有很久的一段时间了...所以这文章只是个回忆...请读者明白)

Im trying to translate it to English... Give me sometime =.="