05 June 2011

愛程

凌晨三點鐘,突然有寫部落格的衝動...真的太久沒動,連自己的部落格link都不記得了!(還好沒把密碼之類的忘掉!!!)

這一路來...真的需要感激很多人;
我愛過的人當中,
有傷過我的人,被我傷害過人的;
有小我很多的,年紀差不多的,比我大很多很多的;
有我暗戀很久的,暗戀我很久的...
他們真令我學會了很多...很多...令本來天真幼稚的我,成熟過來(也許只有我這麼覺得 =x )
不怕說...喜歡過的人加上默默暗戀過的人,真的多不勝數...
也許看到這裡,別人會覺得我花心.也許...
可是,喜歡一個人有罪嗎?而且我喜歡那麼多個,有多少個是喜歡自己的?
沒有!!!
那難道要我死守一個沒有結果的愛情,默默的...傻傻的守候?
難道就沒有選擇的權利?
我守候過一個沒有結果的愛情兩年...到最後我得到什麼?
答案只有別人的不理不睬!不論你對他多麼的愛護...什麼狗屎垃圾!

ps:說到那個火就打起來... psps繼續~

當中:
傷得我最痛的那個人,也是年紀比我小很多的人.
他令我學會最多,
一對情侶,
不能每天都粘得太緊..這樣只會逼到對方對你反感.
不能對他太過的好,他會因為這樣而自大起來,覺得你沒有他不行.
他還令我的直覺變強,觀察力上升,而且不能太過放縱一個人.
還有做人不能太過無趣,每天粘在一起即想不到一點話題.還沒在一起的時候,話題多到聊都聊不完,每天通電話3-5個小時,可是為什麼在一起久了就連一點話題都找不到?
可是也因為我學會的,
我開始不敢太粘,也就被人覺得我不重視.
已經不會如何在對別人好,被人覺得我很黑心.
觀察力強,疑心也變種,想的自然也變多,信任度自然減少...
最後還學會說很多爛笑話~哈哈...

第二:
被我傷害過的人,也就是年紀差不多的人.
這是我最敷衍的一次愛情,我也很抱歉...
他令我學會了珍惜,對不起,拋棄了才學會如何珍惜.
不珍惜,也就沒有後悔可言...不論你怎麼道歉,錯過了就再也沒機會了.
他讓我體會到傷害我最痛的人對我的感覺,他對我太好,太粘...把我捧得太高,變得自大...
有些事情,不親身體驗是不會了解那感覺,學會用對方的角度去看.

第三:
我暗戀印象最深刻和暗戀我的人.
他們讓我學會人不能總是活在幻想當中,要會分哪些是真實的哪些是虛幻的.
要學會分,哪些是高不可攀的人,哪些是你怎麼努力也得不到的人.
你真的只能默默的,看著他,把他當成偶像的崇拜,這樣你會快樂些.
暗戀/明戀我的人,令我知道社會險惡..為了得到你而不折手段的說你好話,只要你為這些話而動心,就等於完蛋.他們不是為愛情而來,而是為樣子,為"性"而來...可悲吧?
他們令我學會了,不要輕信花言巧語,誰不會說?
多喝水啊~早點睡啊~照顧身體啊~你吃了沒啊~都是千篇一律的~
令我學會什麼?學到我也會花言巧語怎麼哄一個人上釣 =__="
但起碼我釣到,我不會輕言放棄!這是我最近學會的...哈哈...

第四:
令我覺得莫名其妙,被控制得很辛苦的人,也就是年紀比我大很多的人.
他令我知道,流下男兒淚是很容易騙得了一個人心軟的. xD
他其實也就是我所說的,別因一個人對你太好,就輕易相信的人.
一旦你上鉤,他之前所對你的好,都要回收...甚至連利息也一起計算.
對不起說一句,他對我很好...可是就被控制得很辛苦,我想做回我自己.
這裡我學會,喜歡一個人不是要改變他,而是喜歡他的全部.
你的愛人不是你的傀儡,一旦失去他想要的自由,他就會離你而去.
還有就是,如果你真的不是那麼喜歡對方,請儘早讓對方知道...最起碼雙方不用繼續那麼辛苦的繼續維持那段已經沒有愛的愛情.


第五:
我付出(不是金錢)過最多的暗戀對象,也就是挑戰自己(犯賤)的一個對象.
他就是令我最火大的一個人,也許還是在意,所以到目前都還控制不了自己的情緒.
他令我學會如果那個人還不是你的另一半,千千萬萬不要為了追求他而花那一分一毫!
那一定是不值得的!試想想,如果你用錢得到的愛情,很明顯他只在意你的錢(小禮物是okay啦),因為到最後你會發現,你正在把錢丟進淡水海!他一點都不會在乎的,如果她會喜歡你,你根本不用花一分錢,你還是能"搞定"他.
再來就是,當你很清楚知道自己很對方不可能的時候,請及時把自己的腳拔出來,不要越踩越深直到無法自拔的狀態.唯一的方法就是,盡可能少見(或不見)對方(這是對我自己有用的方法)
還有一點他真的令我找到我人生中重要的東西,就是"知己".
以前需要把事情埋在心裡,最起碼現在我有朋友能夠分享我的喜悅,這目前是我人生中最快樂的一件事~

不知不覺已寫了一小時半...是時候休息了 =_="

15 January 2011

2011 is not my year...

Just beginning of the year, I fall sick and I though that was new house environment made it. However, many people also fall sick nowadays cause of the hot weather here. Well, think positively that not too bad… Nevertheless, things going worse, almost everyday in 2011 also not going well, making me can’t stop thinking what the hell happen to me!

I though… moved in new house with friends would be happy. Yea, for sure it is… but the God giving me something, and take back something else. This is seriously making upset nowadays… Sorry, Mel & Alice… I just can’t control it, I felt hopeless, helpless, sadness, dispirited and I do not know what to do. Why take away not others stuffs? Why must be take the most important thing away from me? Why…?

I know I am annoying and irritating sometime, but only for you. Why? Because I really cares about you a lots! You do know that. I just want to chat more with you, even one day one “Gud Night”, it does makes me very happy. However, wanted you to reply me a word it seems very hard to you. Ask yourself, did you treat me differently compare with yours other friends? If I did the same as what your friends do to you, you will just ignored my replied or feel irritated, but you will agree with what your friends said to you. This not only I said, I had observed it long time ago. I knew what kind of post you will reply, what kind of topic you are interested in, who status you mostly will comments to, etc... Just that when that kind of post, posted by me, you will watch it but never reply on it. Thats it!

Before you know I like you, we were so close to each other. We talk about everything, although Im not interested in, I still quietly and listen to you. Every time when you in bad mood, I also can cheer you up and make you happy. But now, wanted to make you happy is already not that easy to me anymore. Last time if I had made you angry, or you angry without any reason, I will be the one who said sorry and tried to cheer you up… but this time… I seriously couldn’t understand… I asked myself… If this time I never make apologies and just keep quiet, are we going to maintain this situation forever? You really won’t come and talk to me anymore? Well, if you are just my “normal friend”, I will said… let it be, never mind, I did nothing wrong. Now I couldn’t do that, I would die within a week if keep the situation like that. As a friend, I know I doing too much, more than a friend would do. And I know how much I did, it will just burdened you and you will never ever fall for me. But that is the only way will happen. 


You are  just like the song... One In a Million... How specials you are in my life...
That is why I likes you so much, and never give up easily. But if you ask me what so special about you, I would say "go in my heart and ask it".
Some words are kept in my heart so very long, I think I have never got the chances to say it out face to face. 



I hope... Time can reverse... I choose not to let you know the truth, and I just hide inside my heart. At least, only one person hurt instead of now involve some of the friends. I don't want them to be worried, but I just can't hide my emotional away...



21 May 2010

想你,卻不打擾你,是因為太愛你


Miss you, but won't disturb you, because too love you.


If I could get back to the past, I chose not to know you.
I am not regret.
I cannot stand with the ending without you.
Since then, our happiness has nothing to do with each other.
The word "love" with me was unreachable.
Quietly miss you, and put a section of grace of music.
Your figure is fuzzy, and your face is hazy, but this does not affect the mood I miss you.
I did not miss you very much, just miss you while I am happy, you are the first person I wanted to share my happiness.
I did not miss you very much, just miss you while I am unhappy, you are the first person I wanted to talk to.
I did not miss you very much, just listen song will suddenly remind of you, no why, just because the lyrics written like you and me.
I did not miss you very much, just woke up in the morning will suddenly remind of you, no why, just because the person in the dream like you.
I did not miss you very much, just when reading will suddenly remind of you, no why, just because the protagonist in the book like you and me.
I seriously did not miss you very much, I think of you while reach an entry; I just see a disc halfway will remind of you, I just heard a song halfway will remind of you.
I seriously did not miss you very much, I just miss you while I do not want to think of you.
I did not miss you very much, I just very miss you until the eyes moist.
Miss you, but afraid to let you know, so not dare to disturb you.
Only save the message that you sent to me in the cellular phone, read it while missing you, and then kept laughing, and sadness.
Only save the songs that you always played it, always reluctant to delete, even it is a very common song, listen to it while missing you.
In the lonely night waiting for your message, when received your message, the mind is a sense of excitement, but only reply you a light regards, light joke, and light noisy. (not really know how to translate @_@”)
If didn’t receive the message, will just sleep with a hint of sadness
The day without your news, I will frantically searching for your news, act nonchalance inquired about you, and then listen what they said about you, all these dribs and drabs in mind.
I love you more than what I am imagine, but cannot tell you.
Raise the head and looked at the clouds, breathing the air of the cities, will remind of you.
Think it will always come to you, even it will not, the heart still warm.
At this moment, I miss you, but just miss you, but not to disturb you.


如果我能回到從前,我會選擇不認識你.
不是后悔.
是我不能面對,沒有你的結局.
從此以后,我們的幸福,與彼此都無關了.
原來這個字,與我遙不可及.
靜靜的想你,放上一段優雅的音樂.
你的身影很模糊,你的臉龐很朦朧,但這并不影響我想你的情緒.
我沒有很想你,只是在高興的時候會想你,你是我第一個要分享的人.
我不是很想你,只是在不高興的時候會很想你,你是我第一個想要傾訴的人.
我沒有很想你,只是在聽歌的時候會突然想起你,不為什么,只因為那歌詞里寫的好象我和你.
我沒有很想你,只是在早晨醒來的時候會突然想起你,不為什么,只因為夢里出現的人好像你.
我沒有很想你,只是在看書的時候會突然想起你,不為什么,只因為那書中的主角好象我和你,
我真的沒有很想你,我只是在走到某個入口的時候才會想起你,我只是看碟看到一半的時候會想起你,我只是聽歌聽到一半的時候回想起你.
我真的沒有很想你,我只是在我不想想你的時候想起你.
這樣真好,我沒有很想你,我只是很想你到眼睛濕潤.
想你,但卻很好怕讓你知道,所以不敢也不會打擾你.
只有把你的信息藏在手機里,想你的時候把它們翻出來慢慢的看,細細的品,然后就不停的在偷笑,悲傷.
只有把你的經常放的歌保存起來,一直都舍不得刪去,哪怕是幾首很普通的歌曲.
想你的時候把它們翻出來放上一遍,細細的品味.
只有在每個寂寞如水的夜晚等你的信息,等來了,心里是一陣莫名的激動,但壓印著滿懷的高興給你發去淡淡的問候,淡淡的玩笑,淡淡的吵鬧.
等不來,就只有帶著一絲淡淡的惆悵,但半夢半醒中睡去.
在沒有你消息的日子里,只有拼命地尋找你的點滴,裝作若無其事地打聽關于你的一切,然后***起耳朵聽他們說著你的點滴,把這些點點滴滴都刻在腦海里.
我一直都比想象得更加愛你,可是卻不能告訴你.
抬頭望著這個城市的云,呼吸著這個城市的空氣,也會想起你.
想著它會一直飄到你那里,哪怕是這樣,心里還是暖暖的.
此刻,我想你,但只是想你,而不打擾你.

17 May 2010

人是贪心的

世上,有太多人,事,物是自己很想要的。

可惜的...
有许多自己喜欢的人,就因他们太完美...喜欢他们的人多不胜数。
他们高高在上,自己却一文不值,不是看不起自己,而是自己了自己事~
就算发梦似的被你得到,压力也会逼使你放弃...
人就是如此,明知道得不到还满怀期待,抱着希望的...等着...
有谁不喜欢/想要得到帅哥美女做自己的伴?
别告诉我,帅的美的不专一,所以你会不要!
这些烂借口,我听了就会呕...我就不信你不会要...
少数人也许...但就只有那百分之一...

有着许多想做的事,即因能力有限,能做的也不多...
其实还有很多想做,又可以做的事情,
但是自己太过于懒散而忽略了...
到自己有那个能力的时候...既没了那个时间...
有时候真的不明白,那些有钱有时间的人...是怎么做到的?

又有着很多自己想要的物品,可是世界上有千千万万以上那么多,你要得了多少?
现在科技发达,物品出了一样又出另一样.
而现在的自己,没钱没能力...那承担得了?
有了一个就因该心满意足了...可是,人就是那么的贪心啊~

有些时候,那些你想要的东西一个一个地浮现在你面前,
即伸手摸不着,过后就慢慢的从你的视线消失...
有些东西太过容易得到,别人不会把它们当一回事,直到消失....才懂其可贵...
太难得到又或者不可能得到,那莫名其妙的心就会把它们当作宝.
有些事情,自己没亲身经历过是不会明白当中的含义...
很多名句...听...听过很多,甚至听到烦看到腻...
但没经历过,会明白能体会的又有几个?





















Human are greedy 

In this world, there are too many things we hopes we can have it.

Unfortunately…
Many people we may like them, but just because they are too perfect.
There are uncountable people who like them as well.
They are unattainable, but we were unremarkable.
Even though your dream comes true, the pressure you have will force you to give up.
Human… Although they knew, they can’t have it still expecting they will get something,
and waiting… waiting… waiting…
Who don't want to get a handsome/pretty partner?
Don't tell me that all “handsome/pretty person are fickle, so you will not want to!
I won’t believe that is true, some people might be.

There are so many things we want to do, namely because ability is limited, can’t do much.
There are also many things we can do, but because laziness and forgot about it.
Until the time we have the ability, but there is no times for us to do that.
Sometimes, seriously don't know how the people can be rich and with time...
How they do it?

Now comes to things (as in goods) that we want, the world have billions of stuffs,
how many you could have?
Now a day, with the advanced technology, new products produced very fast.
With the capacity now, how could we afford to have everything we want?
One is actually enough, but humans are greedy, forever won’t be enough for their life.

Sometime, those things that you want emerged in front of you singly,
but can see cannot touch and it's slowly disappear...
Sometime when people got a thing easily, they were not cherishing.
Until it has vanished, they only understand the important of the things.
The things that very difficult to have it or forever doesn't have the chances to have it,
they will treat it as treasure indescribable.

06 May 2010

Feel bad... but what to do?

Lazy to update the blog, and also no time to update it.
Might just write sumthing then continue to work.

現在感覺自己好爛...別人對我那么好,即得我這樣的"回報"
都已經那么久了...我覺得...我們都只不過如此...經不過考驗...
我果真不值得別人對我的好...我還在期待什么?
我很怕...
很怕被問那些帶暗意的問題,
很怕對著那不信任我的眼神,
很怕那期望我要回復的答案...

有時候真不懂...兩個人在一起...真的那么困難嗎?
我知道...他在等我給他那期待的回復...可我真的不懂要怎么答...
換上別人~兩句花言巧語就能搞定...但是...現在的花言巧語即派不上用場...
被覺得我好敷衍...有時...面對這樣的事情...真的對我來說是超難的考驗...
選擇了逃避...我沒辦法...我達不到要求...
我故意不踏出那一步...不是說我不珍惜...只是不想被牽著走.
"喜歡我就不要改變我"...這句話...聽過很多人說...
雖說...改變我是為我好...但改到什么程度去配合某個人,我覺得...有必要嗎?

兩人在一起...真的那么在意誰主動么??
如果對象比我小...每次都是我主動...我都不在意...
喜歡一個人,會很想見他/聽他聲音很正常...
但是...現在情況倒轉...做被動不行么?
就那么在意找我幾次,我就要主動幾次??
有時候,太過有自己的原則反而令人討厭,原則能賣幾錢?
我知道他已盡力的對我好...只是我不懂得欣賞...真抱歉...
兩個牛頭燈籠在一起...遲早也是火星撞地球...
現在的我...只忙功課,什么都不想去想...就因內疚,來發泄一下下...

26 February 2010

Money can't buy memories

To those who always reject my invitation.

Well,
if the reasons you gave are acceptable or reasonable.
Fine, go ahead.
Ya... Money is a problem,
but if that don't need too much... why not?

Last time when I was still study accounting,
it was boring...!!!
Everyday after class, go back home... SLEEP!!
I seldom go out for shopping, sporting or movie with any of my friends.
Moreover, when I came to my working life,
I felt did not have time to go out with my friends.
Same things happened, after work, go back home... SLEEP!!

And now if you ask me... what memories did I have when I was studying account.
I would just tell you "NOT AT ALL"

DO YOU REALLY WANT TO LIVE IN THIS WAY?

Although this is not a big deal and not an important memories,
I just wanted it to be our greats time to be gather.
Three years... not very long for us to be gather.
Why don't we cherish it?

14 February 2010

Chinese New Year?

What to say on this day?
Happy? Boring?
I think different people got different feeling of this date.
For me, I'm awaiting for it, but when the day come to,
I feel boring, seems no one date me out.
The whole day just staying at home do nothing.
Can see I'm still got time to update my blog,
now you know how free I am.

The day before CNY, we have a class gathering,
two of my best friends didn't attend the gathering,
because they need to "Balik Kampung".
However, I already know I'll just sitting there and do nothing for the gathering.
After look at my entire old classmate, I felt they look not much changes,
and got different "gang" there, one group left and one group right.
I sit between them, and do not know where to join.
The group sitting at left hand side, definitely I won't join them, because we got no topic to talk to, as in our secondary school also nothing much to talk.
For another group, I'm like feeling shy to join them.
So... At the end I just sitting there and chat with the person who sit in front of me.

  Not all is my classmate, some is from another class...


What is the meaning that we have the gathering together,
but didn't talk to each other?
It is better to have a gathering that is only the friends that we can talk to each other? or gather with closer friends?
We have been same class and study together for few years,
just one year didn't meet up each other and now become no more topic to chat.
And now turn to my college.
We just same class for few month, and some for a year,
if after we going to major our course for following years,
what would it be after we graduated?
Arh... ...
Wrote so many, in the end still come back to the friends topic.
Am I really concerning about it?
I also do not now, just it comes to my mind and no one listen to me,
so... no choice... just can wrote it here.

13 February 2010

College's Friend

Huh... Finally got time to update my blog.
Actually, I have a lot of things wanted to update,
but when I sit in front of my computer and open my blog home,
I will definitely forgot what I wanted to write.
Fine... At least now I remember one.
Although I wrote a similar post before,
just wanted to add more.

That day I got chance to lunch with them,
but I started to feel strange with them,
and not much topic to talk with them...
Although we still crazy as before,
obviously it has big changes between us.

I started to think...
What is friendship?
How to make it last?
Why other people can keep maintained their relationship?
Why some people met up their old friends still got a lot of things to chat?
Arhhhh... ...
I just wanted to have more friends, why it become so difficult for me.
Sometimes I really feel like I am the extra one in this world,
but this thought only will come when I was depressed.
Well... I will try hard to maintain it.
I Love You, All my friendsss...

30 December 2009

Bad Sunday Ever... (27/12/09)

This date was bad day for me.
First in afternoon, when I wanted to back to PJ from Cameron,
I have been waiting for half an hour, the bus only coming...
and the worst thing is... no seat for me...
Fine! I was sitting at the place that people putting the luggages and bags (at the back).
It was hard to sit... and hot...

On the way...
Suddenly I felt uncomfortable... stomach ache... (omg)
I tried to endure it,it was lucky...

After that, my dear know I am so exhausted in the bus,
and came to fetch me back, as usual... we went for dinner and night market,
but still because of stomach ache and back home early...

The worst thing was happened...
My dear found my blog, but I know one day it will happen.
I called my dear...
no arguments, no quarrels...
But I can feel the feeling of my dear.

However, now has been settled every things...
but... sometime things is happened and cannot turn it back..
Hope everything will be fine in the future.

20 November 2009

To Love and To Be Loved

The one you like, might not like you,
the one like you, you might not like...
What this call? Fate?
Sigh...

You keep asking who like me? Who I like?
But... you don't know how hurt I am,
I don't care how many admirer I have,
I only care about you.
I am willing to take the risk, just for you.

Seriously,
I really like to see your smiling face...
Although very stupid or nonsense action,
I would do, just wanted to make you smile.

No matter how many word I wrote,
no matter how much I cared about you,
you will never know, and never want to know...
Have you ever thought about one day,
someone tell you they like you?
What is your reaction?
Maybe you will be happy to hear that,
but... if that was me?

Obviously,
Whoever around us,
easily get to know that I like you...
For you...
We are just being closer...
For me...
The more hope I have, the greater the disappointment.

Time passed quickly,
unconsciously I have like you for half a year.
Although not a long time,
I am happy with the time being with you.

02 November 2009

Start Changing...

These days,
I'm notice that...
The worlds changed...
Am I oversensitive?
Maybe...

This semester start changing already,
I can't really imagine how next semester going on...
Is very sad to see those scene that show "We are only friend before"

Only before...

Everyone got their own work to do...
When we are free, but they might not free,
same things happen when they are free.

Before this, I was thinking...
"Oh Yeah, I am not alone now!"
"Got more friends to talk to!"
But now, doesn't look like what I was thinking...

Now, what is the different with my previous life?
All the friends will become strange...
Few year later, won't contact each other at all...
That was what my experiences before...

Someone I Cared...
Someone I Worried...
Someone I Like...
Someone I Love...
All would miss in my life...
I am already less friend,
I am already feeling lonely...

BUT... WHO CARE?

18 October 2009

Love you, but not necessarily to have you

These days,
I changed my thought...
Like or Love a person, is not necessarily to have them.

Yeah...
Can't have them, is sad,
but think properly, and think in different way.

A couple,
no freedom,
will have quarrel with each other,
jealousness each other,
there will be a lot of trouble.
Is that what we wanted?

If we keep our relationship now,
I'll feel happy, when saw them happy,
at least I can see their smiling face appear,
at least I can play around with them...
No need to worry too much...


But will miss them...
no people share the happyness or sadness is the worst.


15 October 2009

Remember this, yours life will be easier

Don't mind the person who is bad for you:
In your life, no one shall have the obligation to treat you good.
For those who treat you good,
in addition to cherish and gratitude them, please also be alert,
because what they do definitely with a reason,
they treat you good,
may not because of they like you,
don't be too quick to take as true friends.

No one is irreplaceable, nothing is must have:
Through this, people around you no longer want you,
perhaps lost the love in the world,
you should understand, this is not a big deal.

Life is short, today you are wasting your life,
tomorrow you will find life have been away from you:
Therefore, the earlier you cherish life, you'll enjoy life longer.
It's better to enjoy life early than hope to have longevity.

The world does not have love with the "most":
Love is a instantaneous feeling,
this feeling will definitely change at any time, and mood.
If your so-called love leaves you, please wait patiently,
let time to develop, let the heart slowly precipitate,
Don't too longing love of beauty,
not exaggerated brokenhearted of sadness.

Although many successful people have not many education,
It not means you don't study hard, will certainly succeed:
The knowledge you learned, is the weapon you have.
Human, can start from scratch, but can't be unarmed.

Your parents wouldn't ask you to support their remaining life,
they also wouldn't support your remaining life:
When you grow up to be independent,
their responsibilities have already finished.
In future, you should take the Bus or Benz,
eat shark fin or vermicelli,
that is depending on you.

You can ask yourself faithful, but can't ask others to faithful,
you can ask yourself treat people good,
but not to expect people to treat you good:
How do you treat them, doesn't mean they will treat you the same,
if you can't see through this,
you will only ACTS more unnecessary troubles.



05 October 2009

Fate『Friends』- S1T1 Coursemate

Friends...
How we met?
How we become a good friends?
What made you so important in my life?
Why God put us together, but seperated us soon?

Some friends, just know a year,
but they will remember you forever.

Some friends, known for years,
but after several years were separated,
They'll never remember who you are.

Chia Yeong How

As they said "Don't know he is stupid or just lazy"
My first impression  was "He was clever!"
Because he seem like know many things...
Nevertheless... I'm wrong...
We did help him for his homework as well,
but he was likes "Give him an inch and he will take a yard"

Sometimes, when we chat with him,
he'll reply some irrelevance stuff...

I'm speechless with him...

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Chng, Alex, Big Boss, Wern Chern

Sorry for no photo with them...
They always are one gang in our class...
Whatever program they have, we wouldn't join.
Whatever program we have, they wouldn't join too.
It is funny?
We are inside the same class,
but separated into few different groups.

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Mik Wong Poh Wai

He quite funny actually,
but just had some bad habits...
Don't speak ill of others behind them =x
 
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Yee Ling

At the beginning, I thought she was Malay.
Wearing sunglasses, carrying a bag... Cool!

My first impression was "She was friendly!"
When she saw me still greeted me with a smile...
After we know each other better, I know that she was helpful.

When she doesn't understand, she will be asked many questions.
Some of our classmate afraid she asked some questions they might not understand.
Its Scary >"<

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Cristina Chew Jin Yin

Pretty Girl =D
We didn't chat more...
because she was pure English educated,
but she learned Chinese also.

I'm pleasure same group with her before.
Actually, to be her good friend is worth...
"Can improve my English"...LOL

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Leong Chong Chern

First come to my mind is..."He like OL"
Everyday can't away from them...
He has cleanliness...
That is why he likes to live alone.
He demanded perfection,
Once he can't make it, he wouldn't have mood to continue.

Sometimes he is capricious/stubborn...
Never thought of other people's feelings...
Still we can be a good friend :D

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Tan Chiew Yean

She and Mart always be together,
like a couple...
I'm always can't remember what is her name,
until term two,
We have much more things to talk to...

Kind of good girl, hardwork(actually nothing to do at home XD)

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Mart Yeok Chin

Another pretty girl in our class,
but totally different type.

First impression was "She and Yean very quiet"
When we have class, she didn't talk much to us ...

Well, after know her better,
I felt like she was friendly too.

And...
She likes to shop alone...

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Daniel Fu

Gangster!!! LOL
Thats was my first impression...
But that was only outward appearance.
Since first day of the class, we already know each other,
because of the fundamental drawing class.

From first term, we already become a good friend,
he always said my English like "fxxx" to encourage other.

Moreover, he become unpopular in the second term,
just because his bad habits.
If asked someone to list down his bad habits,
I think that should be many =x

Well, he will be fly to Australia soon.
Just hope he can enjoy his life there.

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Loh Chia Hou

Game Wacko! LOL
He quite quiet, but when he speak...
It like throwing you a BOOM!
Secondly, if you treat him a lunch or whatever for FREE!
Then, take him to sell also he wouldn't care,
and just said yes to you.>.<

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Victor Foong Sai Ho

Another Game/Movie Wacko!
At beginning, he was very quiet,
Come to college alone, going back home alone.
But, when inside the msn's conversation he can talk many.

After he forced to become a member of our family,
he is not alone now (i guess XD)

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Aam (Mohd Nizam)

The only Malay in our class.
 At the beginning, we always had lunch together,
but I can't afford everydays KFC, so I leave him.

His mind only "Fashion"
Everyday Fashion, Fashion, Fashion...
If you asked him to do others homework instead of Fashion,
he will just said "I'm lazy, no mood to do that!" XD
He likes to be a model too,
you can saw him often take photo for himself.

Sometimes, pity him also...
The only Malay,
Can't follow us to eat Chinese foods,
alone to had lunch.

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Danielle Liew

Paid so much money just for passing time =x
This is what she said in 3D class...
Hmm...
Not much impression with her >.<
The only thing I know was,
she don't like to do homework,
and always make it last minute (like me =x)
If I not mistaken,
She like photograph and to be a model XD

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Priscilla Wong Yin Ee

Ganas Girl!!!
Don't provoke her, otherwise you will die very badly.

First impression "Don't like her at all!"
Because when I first met her,
she gave me the feeling that she likes to show off.
In addition, the first time we chat in msn's conversation,
she said can't understand my English =_="
I like being instigated.

But...
After know her better,
I notice that, she was very nice! (but still GANAS!)
Sadly I can't help her when our first presentation.

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Andrenne Chung Mei Ling

Pretty Girl also =)
She is changeable...
Can be funny, can be ganas, can be crazy as well.
Don't know that was good or bad. >.<
But, I have no effect,
we still are good friend~

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Felicia Tan Phaik Imm

The cutest girl in our class,
as I know, she got many pursuers in the class.
But my first impression with her was "She was like a slave"
around the entire girl.
Mean she not prominent at all...

Is actually different,
She was helpful, friendly and voluble.
She likes hang out with friends,
playing around.

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Frankie Cheah Pang Fei

My roommate,
He kind of quiet person, don't like to talk.
Sometimes, he was very blur,
until what he did also can't be sure...
And...
Sometimes, when you talk to him,
he will be stunned moment then respond to you.
And...
Sometimes, he was stubborn,
whatever I told, he wouldn't listen,
until someone give the same criticism, he just to listen.

(After he saw this, might tell me "got meh?", might be ng song later =x)

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Akito Gan Chew Sang

My Daughter!(but not girl =.=)
He not a girl, but he likes a girl... LOL
He likes a ropes, connected the whole class together.
Without him, we wouldn't know our classmate so quickly...
Without him, our class is less joy...
Without him, I will be everyday stay at home and doing nothing...
Without him, I wouldn't know what is love and care...

But...
Do we still have chance to fun together?
Our class will become more quiet,
and...
less the voice...
less the sound that call me "Dad"

I will again become lonely again?

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Eric Leong Jing Xiang

The person who are most difficult to know.
We took more than half term to know him.
Eventually he was forced to become a member of our family,
but still not join us for any program.
So... We called him "Cold Blooded" X]

At beginning, he only talks to his friend,
Come to class, sit with his friend,
after class, went back with his friend,
and never join us for lunch.

The reason he not joins us, and we didn't invite him
is because he talks in English, and not understand Mandarin.
After we know each other, no one dared near him,
because most of them can't understand, what he was talking.
Even if his talk with us, we only for his smirking.

The funny things is,
after he tell the story, everyone in the nod,
but after he away from us, I asked them what he talking about,
Everyone replied, "I don't know!" LOL

He was very hardwork, forbid others for help,
and he don't like group work.
Won't simply waste money.
Endangered good boy... who want? LOL...

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Family Tree
(Father[Me],Mother[Frankie],Son[Eric],
Daughter[Akito] and Daughter's husband[Victor])

Suddenly, I'm became father...
Suddenly, I got one daughter, one son and... a wife...
Is a bit weird, but good things is "I am not alone"
Whatever program we had, they'ld participate.
(except "that cold blood" always ignore us =x)LOL

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S1T1's Group C
Jeannie, Daphne , Rehnu, Arpana, Melissa,
Alice (not inside the photo)

Not know them well,
Soonest we will be a group of good friend =)

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S1T2 (Group B)

All above, might be lost some memories,
I can't even remember it.
Since my brain was empty now,
do remind me, if I missed out any happy memories with you all!

We just finished our first semester,
somethings are going to be change soon...

22 September 2009

Yesterday's Dream

3.30a.m, It is very late...
but... I couldn't sleep...
so... I thought a lot...

At First...
The shadow of you was automatically come to my mind...
But... These times, I didn't thought about "I can't have you"...
I'm thought about when we became a couple...

It is sweet...
Holding your hand, when we have any outing...
Kissing your cheek, when we are apart...
Hugging your waist, when we sit together...
Having food together, living together...
Study together, working together...
Travel the world together...

Yea... I knew that is only dreams...
But... It is happy when I thought about you and me...
I will cherish it, since we have not much time together...

Secondly,
My previous life...
I started to think that I'm very naive when I was young...
Even now, I still think that I'm not mature at all...

How naive I am?
When I was Standard 1, there was a pretty girl at our class...
She is generally recognized as the pretty girl...
Just because of these reason... I started to think I like her...
At first, I bought a cheap pencil box and pack nicely,
but... not dare to give her... (my whole life is so timid)
Still remember that is my Moral teacher help to pass it to her...
but... she open it, and asked someone to pass it back to me...
That was my first time being rejected xD
but I had no feeling at all...

When I was Standard 2, the same thing happened to me...
Same case, but with different pretty girl...
but these time I didn't make any action, and just told my friends I like her... Thats all...
Now, the girl already married, and had a baby...

I don't think I know what love is when I was young,
even now also not so sure...
Why we need love in our life?

Until I'm Standard 5...
I'm started to become famous at the school...
Started to have some pursuers...
But... I rejected them and run away from them...
Maybe because of the feeling of jealous,
my friends are in love with their girl friend...
So... I tried to find a target...
Finally, I get it, and together with her for few months...
but... after that... I met my "First".(Confused xD)
I tried to find some reason to discard her...
but... the same things happen to me, being discarded...
so... I can't stand alone, and tried to find her back...(After you all saw these, someone will kill me >"<)

The similar thing happened for my second love...
Discarded, wanted it back...

Thought until here... I knew I'm really stupid and fickle-minded...
Someone might love you forever, but you rejected/discarded...
Someone might only play around with you, but you put all your efforts there...
Life... Is complicated...
But... take it easy, you will be enjoy it...
How many people can enjoy their life without any worries/upset?
Do we really cherish what you have now?



20 September 2009

WHATEVER HAPPENS, HAPPENS FOR A REASON

1. I love you not because of who you are, 
    but because of who I am when I am with you.

2. No one is worth your tears, and the one who is, won't
     make you cry.

3. Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want
     them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all 
     they have.


4. A true friend is someone who reaches for your hand and
     touches your heart.


5. The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right
     beside them knowing you can't have them.


6. Never frown, even when you are sad, because you never
     know who is falling in love with your smile.


7. To the world you may be one person, but to one person
     you may be the world.


8. Don't waste your time on a man/woman, who isn't willing
     to waste their time on you.

9. Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before
     meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet
     the person, we will know how to be grateful.

10. Don't cry because it is over, smile because it happened.

11. There's always going to be people that hurt you so what
       you have to do is keep on trusting and just be more 
       careful about who you trust next time around.

12. Make yourself a better person and know who you are
       before you try and know someone else and expect
       them to know you.

13. Don't try so hard, the best things come when you least
       expect them to.

Keep this for your life...