2011 is not my year...

Just beginning of the year, I fall sick and I though that was new house environment made it. However, many people also fall sick nowadays cause of the hot weather here. Well, think positively that not too bad… Nevertheless, things going worse, almost everyday in 2011 also not going well, making me can’t stop thinking what the hell happen to me!

I though… moved in new house with friends would be happy. Yea, for sure it is… but the God giving me something, and take back something else. This is seriously making upset nowadays… Sorry, Mel & Alice… I just can’t control it, I felt hopeless, helpless, sadness, dispirited and I do not know what to do. Why take away not others stuffs? Why must be take the most important thing away from me? Why…?

I know I am annoying and irritating sometime, but only for you. Why? Because I really cares about you a lots! You do know that. I just want to chat more with you, even one day one “Gud Night”, it does makes me very happy. However, wanted you to reply me a word it seems very hard to you. Ask yourself, did you treat me differently compare with yours other friends? If I did the same as what your friends do to you, you will just ignored my replied or feel irritated, but you will agree with what your friends said to you. This not only I said, I had observed it long time ago. I knew what kind of post you will reply, what kind of topic you are interested in, who status you mostly will comments to, etc... Just that when that kind of post, posted by me, you will watch it but never reply on it. Thats it!

Before you know I like you, we were so close to each other. We talk about everything, although Im not interested in, I still quietly and listen to you. Every time when you in bad mood, I also can cheer you up and make you happy. But now, wanted to make you happy is already not that easy to me anymore. Last time if I had made you angry, or you angry without any reason, I will be the one who said sorry and tried to cheer you up… but this time… I seriously couldn’t understand… I asked myself… If this time I never make apologies and just keep quiet, are we going to maintain this situation forever? You really won’t come and talk to me anymore? Well, if you are just my “normal friend”, I will said… let it be, never mind, I did nothing wrong. Now I couldn’t do that, I would die within a week if keep the situation like that. As a friend, I know I doing too much, more than a friend would do. And I know how much I did, it will just burdened you and you will never ever fall for me. But that is the only way will happen. 

You are  just like the song... One In a Million... How specials you are in my life...
That is why I likes you so much, and never give up easily. But if you ask me what so special about you, I would say "go in my heart and ask it".
Some words are kept in my heart so very long, I think I have never got the chances to say it out face to face. 

I hope... Time can reverse... I choose not to let you know the truth, and I just hide inside my heart. At least, only one person hurt instead of now involve some of the friends. I don't want them to be worried, but I just can't hide my emotional away...

Money can't buy memories

To those who always reject my invitation.

Well,

if the reasons you gave are acceptable or reasonable.

Fine, go ahead.

Ya... Money is a problem,

but if that don't need too much... why not?

Last time when I was still study accounting,

it was boring...!!!

Everyday after class, go back home... SLEEP!!

I seldom go out for shopping, sporting or movie with any of my friends.

Moreover, when I came to my working life,

I felt did not have time to go out with my friends.

Same things happened, after work, go back home... SLEEP!!

And now if you ask me... what memories did I have when I was studying account.

I would just tell you "NOT AT ALL"

DO YOU REALLY WANT TO LIVE IN THIS WAY?

Although this is not a big deal and not an important memories,

I just wanted it to be our greats time to be gather.

Three years... not very long for us to be gather.

Why don't we cherish it?

Chinese New Year?

What to say on this day?
Happy? Boring?
I think different people got different feeling of this date.
For me, I'm awaiting for it, but when the day come to,
I feel boring, seems no one date me out.
The whole day just staying at home do nothing.
Can see I'm still got time to update my blog,
now you know how free I am.

The day before CNY, we have a class gathering,
two of my best friends didn't attend the gathering,
because they need to "Balik Kampung".
However, I already know I'll just sitting there and do nothing for the gathering.
After look at my entire old classmate, I felt they look not much changes,
and got different "gang" there, one group left and one group right.
I sit between them, and do not know where to join.
The group sitting at left hand side, definitely I won't join them, because we got no topic to talk to, as in our secondary school also nothing much to talk.
For another group, I'm like feeling shy to join them.
So... At the end I just sitting there and chat with the person who sit in front of me.

  Not all is my classmate, some is from another class...

What is the meaning that we have the gathering together,
but didn't talk to each other?
It is better to have a gathering that is only the friends that we can talk to each other? or gather with closer friends?
We have been same class and study together for few years,
just one year didn't meet up each other and now become no more topic to chat.
And now turn to my college.
We just same class for few month, and some for a year,
if after we going to major our course for following years,
what would it be after we graduated?
Arh... ...
Wrote so many, in the end still come back to the friends topic.
Am I really concerning about it?
I also do not now, just it comes to my mind and no one listen to me,
so... no choice... just can wrote it here.

College's Friend

Huh... Finally got time to update my blog.

Actually, I have a lot of things wanted to update,

but when I sit in front of my computer and open my blog home,

I will definitely forgot what I wanted to write.

Fine... At least now I remember one.

Although I wrote a similar post before,

just wanted to add more.

That day I got chance to lunch with them,

but I started to feel strange with them,

and not much topic to talk with them...

Although we still crazy as before,

obviously it has big changes between us.

I started to think...

What is friendship?

How to make it last?

Why other people can keep maintained their relationship?

Why some people met up their old friends still got a lot of things to chat?

Arhhhh... ...

I just wanted to have more friends, why it become so difficult for me.

Sometimes I really feel like I am the extra one in this world,

but this thought only will come when I was depressed.

Well... I will try hard to maintain it.

I Love You, All my friendsss...

Start Changing...

These days,

I'm notice that...

The worlds changed...

Am I oversensitive?

Maybe...

This semester start changing already,

I can't really imagine how next semester going on...

Is very sad to see those scene that show "We are only friend before"

Only before...

Everyone got their own work to do...

When we are free, but they might not free,

same things happen when they are free.

Before this, I was thinking...

"Oh Yeah, I am not alone now!"

"Got more friends to talk to!"

But now, doesn't look like what I was thinking...

Now, what is the different with my previous life?

All the friends will become strange...

Few year later, won't contact each other at all...

That was what my experiences before...

Someone I Cared...

Someone I Worried...

Someone I Like...

Someone I Love...

All would miss in my life...

I am already less friend,

I am already feeling lonely...

BUT... WHO CARE?

Fate『Friends』- S1T1 Coursemate

Friends...

How we met?

How we become a good friends?

What made you so important in my life?

Why God put us together, but seperated us soon?

Some friends, just know a year,

but they will remember you forever.

Some friends, known for years,

but after several years were separated,

They'll never remember who you are.

Chia Yeong How

As they said "Don't know he is stupid or just lazy"

My first impression  was "He was clever!"

Because he seem like know many things...
Nevertheless... I'm wrong...
We did help him for his homework as well,
but he was likes "Give him an inch and he will take a yard"

Sometimes, when we chat with him,
he'll reply some irrelevance stuff...

I'm speechless with him...

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Chng, Alex, Big Boss, Wern Chern

Sorry for no photo with them...
They always are one gang in our class...
Whatever program they have, we wouldn't join.
Whatever program we have, they wouldn't join too.
It is funny?
We are inside the same class,
but separated into few different groups.

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Mik Wong Poh Wai

He quite funny actually,

but just had some bad habits...

Don't speak ill of others behind them =x

 

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Yee Ling

At the beginning, I thought she was Malay.

Wearing sunglasses, carrying a bag... Cool!

My first impression was "She was friendly!"

When she saw me still greeted me with a smile...

After we know each other better, I know that she was helpful.

When she doesn't understand, she will be asked many questions.

Some of our classmate afraid she asked some questions they might not understand.

Its Scary >"<

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Cristina Chew Jin Yin

Pretty Girl =D

We didn't chat more...

because she was pure English educated,

but she learned Chinese also.

I'm pleasure same group with her before.

Actually, to be her good friend is worth...

"Can improve my English"...LOL

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Leong Chong Chern

First come to my mind is..."He like OL"
Everyday can't away from them...
He has cleanliness...
That is why he likes to live alone.
He demanded perfection,
Once he can't make it, he wouldn't have mood to continue.

Sometimes he is capricious/stubborn...
Never thought of other people's feelings...
Still we can be a good friend :D

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Tan Chiew Yean

She and Mart always be together,

like a couple...

I'm always can't remember what is her name,

until term two,

We have much more things to talk to...

Kind of good girl, hardwork(actually nothing to do at home XD)

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Mart Yeok Chin

Another pretty girl in our class,
but totally different type.

First impression was "She and Yean very quiet"
When we have class, she didn't talk much to us ...

Well, after know her better,
I felt like she was friendly too.

And...
She likes to shop alone...

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Daniel Fu

Gangster!!! LOL

Thats was my first impression...

But that was only outward appearance.

Since first day of the class, we already know each other,

because of the fundamental drawing class.

From first term, we already become a good friend,

he always said my English like "fxxx" to encourage other.

Moreover, he become unpopular in the second term,

just because his bad habits.

If asked someone to list down his bad habits,

I think that should be many =x

Well, he will be fly to Australia soon.

Just hope he can enjoy his life there.

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Loh Chia Hou

Game Wacko! LOL

He quite quiet, but when he speak...

It like throwing you a BOOM!

Secondly, if you treat him a lunch or whatever for FREE!

Then, take him to sell also he wouldn't care,

and just said yes to you.>.<

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Victor Foong Sai Ho

Another Game/Movie Wacko!

At beginning, he was very quiet,

Come to college alone, going back home alone.

But, when inside the msn's conversation he can talk many.

After he forced to become a member of our family,

he is not alone now (i guess XD)

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Aam (Mohd Nizam)

The only Malay in our class.

 At the beginning, we always had lunch together,

but I can't afford everydays KFC, so I leave him.

His mind only "Fashion"

Everyday Fashion, Fashion, Fashion...

If you asked him to do others homework instead of Fashion,

he will just said "I'm lazy, no mood to do that!" XD

He likes to be a model too,

you can saw him often take photo for himself.

Sometimes, pity him also...

The only Malay,

Can't follow us to eat Chinese foods,

alone to had lunch.

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Danielle Liew

Paid so much money just for passing time =x

This is what she said in 3D class...

Hmm...

Not much impression with her >.<

The only thing I know was,

she don't like to do homework,

and always make it last minute (like me =x)

If I not mistaken,

She like photograph and to be a model XD

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Priscilla Wong Yin Ee

Ganas Girl!!!

Don't provoke her, otherwise you will die very badly.

First impression "Don't like her at all!"

Because when I first met her,

she gave me the feeling that she likes to show off.

In addition, the first time we chat in msn's conversation,

she said can't understand my English =_="

I like being instigated.

But...

After know her better,

I notice that, she was very nice! (but still GANAS!)

Sadly I can't help her when our first presentation.

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Andrenne Chung Mei Ling

Pretty Girl also =)

She is changeable...

Can be funny, can be ganas, can be crazy as well.

Don't know that was good or bad. >.<

But, I have no effect,

we still are good friend~

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Felicia Tan Phaik Imm

The cutest girl in our class,

as I know, she got many pursuers in the class.

But my first impression with her was "She was like a slave"

around the entire girl.

Mean she not prominent at all...

Is actually different,

She was helpful, friendly and voluble.

She likes hang out with friends,

playing around.

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Frankie Cheah Pang Fei

My roommate,

He kind of quiet person, don't like to talk.

Sometimes, he was very blur,

until what he did also can't be sure...

And...

Sometimes, when you talk to him,

he will be stunned moment then respond to you.

And...

Sometimes, he was stubborn,

whatever I told, he wouldn't listen,

until someone give the same criticism, he just to listen.

(After he saw this, might tell me "got meh?", might be ng song later =x)

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Akito Gan Chew Sang

My Daughter!(but not girl =.=)

He not a girl, but he likes a girl... LOL

He likes a ropes, connected the whole class together.

Without him, we wouldn't know our classmate so quickly...

Without him, our class is less joy...

Without him, I will be everyday stay at home and doing nothing...

Without him, I wouldn't know what is love and care...

But...

Do we still have chance to fun together?

Our class will become more quiet,

and...

less the voice...

less the sound that call me "Dad"

I will again become lonely again?

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Eric Leong Jing Xiang

The person who are most difficult to know.

We took more than half term to know him.

Eventually he was forced to become a member of our family,

but still not join us for any program.

So... We called him "Cold Blooded" X]

At beginning, he only talks to his friend,

Come to class, sit with his friend,

after class, went back with his friend,

and never join us for lunch.

The reason he not joins us, and we didn't invite him

is because he talks in English, and not understand Mandarin.

After we know each other, no one dared near him,

because most of them can't understand, what he was talking.

Even if his talk with us, we only for his smirking.

The funny things is,

after he tell the story, everyone in the nod,

but after he away from us, I asked them what he talking about,

Everyone replied, "I don't know!" LOL

He was very hardwork, forbid others for help,

and he don't like group work.

Won't simply waste money.

Endangered good boy... who want? LOL...

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Family Tree

(Father[Me],Mother[Frankie],Son[Eric],

Daughter[Akito] and Daughter's husband[Victor])

Suddenly, I'm became father...

Suddenly, I got one daughter, one son and... a wife...

Is a bit weird, but good things is "I am not alone"

Whatever program we had, they'ld participate.

(except "that cold blood" always ignore us =x)LOL

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S1T1's Group C

Jeannie, Daphne , Rehnu, Arpana, Melissa,

Alice (not inside the photo)

Not know them well,

Soonest we will be a group of good friend =)

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S1T2 (Group B)

All above, might be lost some memories,
I can't even remember it.
Since my brain was empty now,
do remind me, if I missed out any happy memories with you all!

We just finished our first semester,
somethings are going to be change soon...