Yesterday's Dream

3.30a.m, It is very late...

but... I couldn't sleep...

so... I thought a lot...

At First...

The shadow of you was automatically come to my mind...

But... These times, I didn't thought about "I can't have you"...

I'm thought about when we became a couple...

It is sweet...

Holding your hand, when we have any outing...

Kissing your cheek, when we are apart...

Hugging your waist, when we sit together...

Having food together, living together...

Study together, working together...

Travel the world together...

Yea... I knew that is only dreams...

But... It is happy when I thought about you and me...

I will cherish it, since we have not much time together...

Secondly,

My previous life...

I started to think that I'm very naive when I was young...

Even now, I still think that I'm not mature at all...

How naive I am?

When I was Standard 1, there was a pretty girl at our class...

She is generally recognized as the pretty girl...

Just because of these reason... I started to think I like her...

At first, I bought a cheap pencil box and pack nicely,

but... not dare to give her... (my whole life is so timid)

Still remember that is my Moral teacher help to pass it to her...

but... she open it, and asked someone to pass it back to me...

That was my first time being rejected xD

but I had no feeling at all...

When I was Standard 2, the same thing happened to me...

Same case, but with different pretty girl...

but these time I didn't make any action, and just told my friends I like her... Thats all...

Now, the girl already married, and had a baby...

I don't think I know what love is when I was young,

even now also not so sure...

Why we need love in our life?

Until I'm Standard 5...

I'm started to become famous at the school...

Started to have some pursuers...

But... I rejected them and run away from them...

Maybe because of the feeling of jealous,

my friends are in love with their girl friend...

So... I tried to find a target...

Finally, I get it, and together with her for few months...

but... after that... I met my "First".(Confused xD)

I tried to find some reason to discard her...

but... the same things happen to me, being discarded...

so... I can't stand alone, and tried to find her back...(After you all saw these, someone will kill me >"<)

The similar thing happened for my second love...

Discarded, wanted it back...

Thought until here... I knew I'm really stupid and fickle-minded...

Someone might love you forever, but you rejected/discarded...

Someone might only play around with you, but you put all your efforts there...

Life... Is complicated...

But... take it easy, you will be enjoy it...

How many people can enjoy their life without any worries/upset?

Do we really cherish what you have now?

WHATEVER HAPPENS, HAPPENS FOR A REASON

1. I love you not because of who you are, 

    but because of who I am when I am with you.

2. No one is worth your tears, and the one who is, won't
     make you cry.

3. Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want
     them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all 
     they have.


4. A true friend is someone who reaches for your hand and
     touches your heart.


5. The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right
     beside them knowing you can't have them.


6. Never frown, even when you are sad, because you never
     know who is falling in love with your smile.


7. To the world you may be one person, but to one person
     you may be the world.


8. Don't waste your time on a man/woman, who isn't willing
     to waste their time on you.

9. Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before
     meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet
     the person, we will know how to be grateful.

10. Don't cry because it is over, smile because it happened.

11. There's always going to be people that hurt you so what
       you have to do is keep on trusting and just be more 
       careful about who you trust next time around.

12. Make yourself a better person and know who you are
       before you try and know someone else and expect
       them to know you.

13. Don't try so hard, the best things come when you least
       expect them to.

Keep this for your life...

Should I Give Up?

After spent whole night to read through yours blog,

from the oldest post until the newest post...

I found out that...

99.99% I can't have you, even I tried to improve myself...

last time I always wrote "I can't have you",

without any prove, it just I'm no courage when facing you...

Now...

I knew the answer clearly...

This is not I'm no efforts, and not my personality problem...

Not because of I'm not your type, and not we don't know each other...

What else?

I don't think you will change your mind...

Since I knew, you are a stubborn person...

Stubborn with something you think you are right,

Stubborn with some theoretical problems,

Stubborn with left and right, up and down...

Should I give up?

Since I knew, I don't have the chance together with you...

If not...

I will feel exhausting when chat with you...

I will feel grieving when look at you...

I will feel helpless when you play around with me...

I'm going to crazy soon...

Although I wanted to give up,

but... I can?

Want to forget a person is not that easy...

Can't Be Hurt

There are some people...
They are stupid...
Seems very fickle minded, but actually very loyal.
Seems very strong, but actually whoever also fragile than...
Seems very happy, but who know the sadness behind them?

Actually many time...
they are self-imposed torture...
Although they love you,
they rather painful dead...
They choose to left,
and let the tears optional unbridled...

Actually many time...
They are easy to understand...
They scared alone,
because they will fantasize when they were alone,
and remembered that story which was no ending,
remembered the familiar face...
They will feel very insecure when they were alone...
Their request was always very low,
they just want the person they like accompany them...

Actually many times...
They are very sensitive,
a expression or an action, will let them jumpy for a day...
Don't let them to panic, don't let them sad,
if you love them...

Actually many times...
They are sad, but they are not sentimental,
its because some scene which can easily recalls their mixes memories...
They like to use words to compose their mood,
there is the only way they express themselves...

Actually many times...
They are always living in the past...
They are always finding some familiar feeling...
Although they agreed to forget the past,
they don't know... it's already mind deeply...

Actually many times...
They fear to see someone sweet,
they are not jealous,
just feel like it's similar with their past,
then fall in their memories,
until past hurt his consciousness awakens...

Actually many times...
They are very persistent...
Sometimes don't understand what they insist on...
They are await for no ending story,
or waiting for more harm?

They are stupid,
If they fall in love...
They will like a doll,
let any were swinging...

They have too many shortcomings...
Bad temper, willful, sensitive suspicious...
Either not near their... Either treat them well...
Because their heart crispy very...

Can't be hurt!

Thats... ME!

Name Test - Result

Yay~ I got the new name already... but have to choose either one of it...
I like 余紋樂 more than 余汶洛... might be choose that as my new name~

余紋樂

天格 -> 8  (金)
人格 -> 17 (金)
地格 -> 25 (土)
外格 -> 16
總格 -> 32

金金土->容易成功,達到目的,身心亦健全,但不可自信過剛倔強,若和氣待人,必獲成功發展更能獲得權威與顯達.

余汶洛

天格 -> 8  (金)
人格 -> 15 (土)
地格 -> 18 (金)
外格 -> 11
總格 -> 25

金土金->平生大都幫助他人,但不可太好幫助他人而拖累自己,本亦可順利成功,達成愿望,身體健壯,福壽雙全.

11->草木逢春之象,穩健踏實,獲得眾望,大富大貴之數,有再興家運之勢.(大吉)
15->福壽圓滿之象,溫和謙恭,能受長者提攜,成大事.(大吉)
16->權高綠重之象,集名望於一身,能獲尊仰,富貴榮華之數,忌倨傲,戒溺女色.(大吉)
17->權高之象.權位高而固執,缺包容力,易失人利,若善自矯正,福祿常伴.(吉)
18->權勢浩大之象計劃之事大抵有成,能排除障礙,但自尊心過強,凡事三思(吉)
25->好辯領導之象,個性倔強但本性敏銳,長於口才,然易生口舌是非,凡事小心.(大吉)
32->幸運鴻福之象,龍困淺灘,一旦風雲際會,便可一躍升天,多管閑事為其缺點(吉)

The More Intimate We Are The More Fragile My Heart Is

These days, we are  getting more close to each other...

These should be happy...

but... do i really feel happy?

Seriously,

The movement I am together with you are happy,

but... the mood becomes very down after that...

and... will think much more negative things...

Because,

I know... I can't have you...

I know... I can't know you better...

I know... In the near future, you will be away from me...

But,

I wish can know you better,

and know what is in your mind now.

Do you have same feeling with me?

or else you totally didn't think about love in your life?

I am minded every single words you wrote(excepted those i can't understand)...

and single things you spoken...

Wish... always never come true...

just hide myself and cry alone...

Don't worry, be curious...

This is our Final Project for Design Theory, with the theme "Don't worry, be curious...

I did it with my teammate, which is Victor and Frankie.

The idea was came to me when they were talking about the "Stop Motion"

After that, I am thinking the whole story of the stop motion with some of their suggestion/idea...

Yea... we have fun during the time, and almost laugh from the beginning until the end, but the whole story is fine, just the out come is not like what I am imagines.

The whole story that in my mind is quite funny actually, but we faced a lot of problem to make it out such as no idea how to use photoshop, got argument with each other, computer keep coming out problem when using the movie maker, a lot of things we can't make it as what we wanted.

Another thing is that we can't really find the background as what we wanted. In addition, is the song that we used. Actually, we wanted to get some funny song, but we couldn't get it since we are lack of time.

I had confident to say that, if I can do it again... It will be better! Moreover, I will re-do it as my own collection and I will post it here again to compare it.

Yea... now you can enjoy the Stop Motion~

Name Test

(男)   筆畫   五行
 余       7         土
 文       4         水
 樂      15        火

天格 -> 8  (金)
人格 -> 11 (木)
地格 -> 19 (水)
外格 -> 16 (土)
總格 -> 26 (土)

天格8分析  ->(八卦之数)八卦之数,乾坎艮震,巽离坤兑,无穷无尽.(吉)
             天格数是先祖留传下来的,其数理对人影响不大.
人格11分析 ->(旱苗逢雨)万物更新,调顺发达,恢弘泽世,繁荣富贵.(吉)
             人格数又称主运,是整个姓名的中心点,影响人的一生命运.
地格19分析 ->(多难)风云蔽日,辛苦重来,虽有智谋,万事挫折.(凶)
             地格数又称前运,影响人中年以前的活动力.
外格16分析 ->(厚重)厚德载物,安富尊荣,财官双美,功成名就.(吉)
             外格数影响命运之灵活力.
總格26分析 ->(变怪)变怪之谜,英雄豪杰,波澜重叠,而奏大功.(半吉)
             总格又称后运,影响人中年至晚年的命运.


对三才数理的影响(天人地)
成功运被压抑,不能伸张,易失败流转,病难,甚至有陷于短命或顽症之虑.(凶)

对基础运的影响  (人地)
一时虽能顺利发展,但不时可能有衰亡,疾病的症兆.(凶)

对成功运的影响  (天人)
命运被压抑,导致不良的结果,易得脑部疾病和神经衰弱,呼吸器官等难治之症.(凶)

对人际关系的影响(人外)
好奇心强,但不求实干,如不自轻心,则可望成功.言行有信的人,不会有大过失.多患近视,皮肤病,不宜与人合作.(平)


人格11有以下数理暗示-> 温和运
地格19有以下数理暗示-> 败财运
外格16有以下数理暗示-> 首领运、财富运、双妻运、温和运
總格26有以下数理暗示-> 艺能运、败财运

总评及建议：
   你的名字起得不算理想,如果可能的话,不妨尝试改变一下,也许会有事半功
   倍之效取此名 需谨慎处理财富

姓名评分：71


昨天去看了那算命师...他说的不无道理~
在家不听父母话，因为他们无力压我...
在外被朋友压=.="(意识是容易被利用，须保护自己)
除了几个较好的朋友,其他都很少话说,因我较静什么都收在心里...
就算好朋友,住在一起后,久而久之也会没话说 XD

所以呢~我的新名字多两个星期就会有咯~
呵呵~

❖花貧公子❖

這是個人無聊所寫的小說...故事關于小翔的經歷與他的愛情故事...
注:故事內容涉及BL,不能接受BL的...對不起,這篇小說不適合你...

人物介紹:

主角
人物名稱:洛子翔(小翔)
年齡:20歲
出身:漢洛麗雅(一個山上小村莊)
性格:偶爾懶惰,認真做事時積極,開朗,花心(能同時喜歡多個人)
自我簡介:大家好，我是小翔！我喜歡吃蔬菜水果，山上的小孩多健康^^v

配角
人物名稱:趙梓柏(小柏)
年齡:19歲
出身:克里拉鎮(漢洛麗雅山下的繁榮小鎮)
性格:孤僻,勤勞,認真,有點傻氣
自我簡介:要認識我,繼續看小說就好...(話不多說=.=")

人物名稱:魏仁杰(小杰)
年齡:16歲
性格:聰明,成熟,容易發悶
自我簡介:我是杰,有什么要問就問,別拖拖拉拉的...

人物名稱:姜添豪(小姜)
年齡:18歲
性格:溫柔,孩子氣,聰明,勤勞
自我簡介:大家都叫我小姜,我也不懂為什么他們不叫我小豪...

人物名稱:鳳偉雄(大雄)
年齡:29歲
性格:大男人,高智慧,怪脾氣
自我簡介:今天吃舍~?你還沒答我,要吃舍?你到底聽見沒??!!(開始不爽)

其他
每一个重要人物，我都会在这里更新...
人物還未確定,隨時更改...
希望有人能幫我想些角色名稱...男的最好(BL小說嘛...)

第一章即将来临...敬请期待...

Come from different planet

Everytime, when I fall in love...

There won't be any miracles happen...

Even though i like them, but we seem like come from different planet...

I was wonder...

We have different thought,

for me... It is only love in my mind,

but for them... Im not sure...

We have different interest,

what I like, they don't like,

what they like, I may not like,

but I am trying to join them...

You know...?

I am tried my best to improved myself,

the reason why I do that...

It is all because of you...

What song you like, I just tried to accept it...

What activities you like, I tried to pratice it...

But... seem like i changed for nothing...

If we got chance to be together...

will this relationship be able to last long?

Even thought now with my dear also the same,
Im seriously do not know what they are thinking...
Am I stupid? or else we just need time to understand each other?

Do You Like Me?