21 May 2010

想你,卻不打擾你,是因為太愛你


Miss you, but won't disturb you, because too love you.


If I could get back to the past, I chose not to know you.
I am not regret.
I cannot stand with the ending without you.
Since then, our happiness has nothing to do with each other.
The word "love" with me was unreachable.
Quietly miss you, and put a section of grace of music.
Your figure is fuzzy, and your face is hazy, but this does not affect the mood I miss you.
I did not miss you very much, just miss you while I am happy, you are the first person I wanted to share my happiness.
I did not miss you very much, just miss you while I am unhappy, you are the first person I wanted to talk to.
I did not miss you very much, just listen song will suddenly remind of you, no why, just because the lyrics written like you and me.
I did not miss you very much, just woke up in the morning will suddenly remind of you, no why, just because the person in the dream like you.
I did not miss you very much, just when reading will suddenly remind of you, no why, just because the protagonist in the book like you and me.
I seriously did not miss you very much, I think of you while reach an entry; I just see a disc halfway will remind of you, I just heard a song halfway will remind of you.
I seriously did not miss you very much, I just miss you while I do not want to think of you.
I did not miss you very much, I just very miss you until the eyes moist.
Miss you, but afraid to let you know, so not dare to disturb you.
Only save the message that you sent to me in the cellular phone, read it while missing you, and then kept laughing, and sadness.
Only save the songs that you always played it, always reluctant to delete, even it is a very common song, listen to it while missing you.
In the lonely night waiting for your message, when received your message, the mind is a sense of excitement, but only reply you a light regards, light joke, and light noisy. (not really know how to translate @_@”)
If didn’t receive the message, will just sleep with a hint of sadness
The day without your news, I will frantically searching for your news, act nonchalance inquired about you, and then listen what they said about you, all these dribs and drabs in mind.
I love you more than what I am imagine, but cannot tell you.
Raise the head and looked at the clouds, breathing the air of the cities, will remind of you.
Think it will always come to you, even it will not, the heart still warm.
At this moment, I miss you, but just miss you, but not to disturb you.


如果我能回到從前,我會選擇不認識你.
不是后悔.
是我不能面對,沒有你的結局.
從此以后,我們的幸福,與彼此都無關了.
原來這個字,與我遙不可及.
靜靜的想你,放上一段優雅的音樂.
你的身影很模糊,你的臉龐很朦朧,但這并不影響我想你的情緒.
我沒有很想你,只是在高興的時候會想你,你是我第一個要分享的人.
我不是很想你,只是在不高興的時候會很想你,你是我第一個想要傾訴的人.
我沒有很想你,只是在聽歌的時候會突然想起你,不為什么,只因為那歌詞里寫的好象我和你.
我沒有很想你,只是在早晨醒來的時候會突然想起你,不為什么,只因為夢里出現的人好像你.
我沒有很想你,只是在看書的時候會突然想起你,不為什么,只因為那書中的主角好象我和你,
我真的沒有很想你,我只是在走到某個入口的時候才會想起你,我只是看碟看到一半的時候會想起你,我只是聽歌聽到一半的時候回想起你.
我真的沒有很想你,我只是在我不想想你的時候想起你.
這樣真好,我沒有很想你,我只是很想你到眼睛濕潤.
想你,但卻很好怕讓你知道,所以不敢也不會打擾你.
只有把你的信息藏在手機里,想你的時候把它們翻出來慢慢的看,細細的品,然后就不停的在偷笑,悲傷.
只有把你的經常放的歌保存起來,一直都舍不得刪去,哪怕是幾首很普通的歌曲.
想你的時候把它們翻出來放上一遍,細細的品味.
只有在每個寂寞如水的夜晚等你的信息,等來了,心里是一陣莫名的激動,但壓印著滿懷的高興給你發去淡淡的問候,淡淡的玩笑,淡淡的吵鬧.
等不來,就只有帶著一絲淡淡的惆悵,但半夢半醒中睡去.
在沒有你消息的日子里,只有拼命地尋找你的點滴,裝作若無其事地打聽關于你的一切,然后***起耳朵聽他們說著你的點滴,把這些點點滴滴都刻在腦海里.
我一直都比想象得更加愛你,可是卻不能告訴你.
抬頭望著這個城市的云,呼吸著這個城市的空氣,也會想起你.
想著它會一直飄到你那里,哪怕是這樣,心里還是暖暖的.
此刻,我想你,但只是想你,而不打擾你.

17 May 2010

人是贪心的

世上,有太多人,事,物是自己很想要的。

可惜的...
有许多自己喜欢的人,就因他们太完美...喜欢他们的人多不胜数。
他们高高在上,自己却一文不值,不是看不起自己,而是自己了自己事~
就算发梦似的被你得到,压力也会逼使你放弃...
人就是如此,明知道得不到还满怀期待,抱着希望的...等着...
有谁不喜欢/想要得到帅哥美女做自己的伴?
别告诉我,帅的美的不专一,所以你会不要!
这些烂借口,我听了就会呕...我就不信你不会要...
少数人也许...但就只有那百分之一...

有着许多想做的事,即因能力有限,能做的也不多...
其实还有很多想做,又可以做的事情,
但是自己太过于懒散而忽略了...
到自己有那个能力的时候...既没了那个时间...
有时候真的不明白,那些有钱有时间的人...是怎么做到的?

又有着很多自己想要的物品,可是世界上有千千万万以上那么多,你要得了多少?
现在科技发达,物品出了一样又出另一样.
而现在的自己,没钱没能力...那承担得了?
有了一个就因该心满意足了...可是,人就是那么的贪心啊~

有些时候,那些你想要的东西一个一个地浮现在你面前,
即伸手摸不着,过后就慢慢的从你的视线消失...
有些东西太过容易得到,别人不会把它们当一回事,直到消失....才懂其可贵...
太难得到又或者不可能得到,那莫名其妙的心就会把它们当作宝.
有些事情,自己没亲身经历过是不会明白当中的含义...
很多名句...听...听过很多,甚至听到烦看到腻...
但没经历过,会明白能体会的又有几个?





















Human are greedy 

In this world, there are too many things we hopes we can have it.

Unfortunately…
Many people we may like them, but just because they are too perfect.
There are uncountable people who like them as well.
They are unattainable, but we were unremarkable.
Even though your dream comes true, the pressure you have will force you to give up.
Human… Although they knew, they can’t have it still expecting they will get something,
and waiting… waiting… waiting…
Who don't want to get a handsome/pretty partner?
Don't tell me that all “handsome/pretty person are fickle, so you will not want to!
I won’t believe that is true, some people might be.

There are so many things we want to do, namely because ability is limited, can’t do much.
There are also many things we can do, but because laziness and forgot about it.
Until the time we have the ability, but there is no times for us to do that.
Sometimes, seriously don't know how the people can be rich and with time...
How they do it?

Now comes to things (as in goods) that we want, the world have billions of stuffs,
how many you could have?
Now a day, with the advanced technology, new products produced very fast.
With the capacity now, how could we afford to have everything we want?
One is actually enough, but humans are greedy, forever won’t be enough for their life.

Sometime, those things that you want emerged in front of you singly,
but can see cannot touch and it's slowly disappear...
Sometime when people got a thing easily, they were not cherishing.
Until it has vanished, they only understand the important of the things.
The things that very difficult to have it or forever doesn't have the chances to have it,
they will treat it as treasure indescribable.

06 May 2010

Feel bad... but what to do?

Lazy to update the blog, and also no time to update it.
Might just write sumthing then continue to work.

現在感覺自己好爛...別人對我那么好,即得我這樣的"回報"
都已經那么久了...我覺得...我們都只不過如此...經不過考驗...
我果真不值得別人對我的好...我還在期待什么?
我很怕...
很怕被問那些帶暗意的問題,
很怕對著那不信任我的眼神,
很怕那期望我要回復的答案...

有時候真不懂...兩個人在一起...真的那么困難嗎?
我知道...他在等我給他那期待的回復...可我真的不懂要怎么答...
換上別人~兩句花言巧語就能搞定...但是...現在的花言巧語即派不上用場...
被覺得我好敷衍...有時...面對這樣的事情...真的對我來說是超難的考驗...
選擇了逃避...我沒辦法...我達不到要求...
我故意不踏出那一步...不是說我不珍惜...只是不想被牽著走.
"喜歡我就不要改變我"...這句話...聽過很多人說...
雖說...改變我是為我好...但改到什么程度去配合某個人,我覺得...有必要嗎?

兩人在一起...真的那么在意誰主動么??
如果對象比我小...每次都是我主動...我都不在意...
喜歡一個人,會很想見他/聽他聲音很正常...
但是...現在情況倒轉...做被動不行么?
就那么在意找我幾次,我就要主動幾次??
有時候,太過有自己的原則反而令人討厭,原則能賣幾錢?
我知道他已盡力的對我好...只是我不懂得欣賞...真抱歉...
兩個牛頭燈籠在一起...遲早也是火星撞地球...
現在的我...只忙功課,什么都不想去想...就因內疚,來發泄一下下...

26 February 2010

Money can't buy memories

To those who always reject my invitation.

Well,
if the reasons you gave are acceptable or reasonable.
Fine, go ahead.
Ya... Money is a problem,
but if that don't need too much... why not?

Last time when I was still study accounting,
it was boring...!!!
Everyday after class, go back home... SLEEP!!
I seldom go out for shopping, sporting or movie with any of my friends.
Moreover, when I came to my working life,
I felt did not have time to go out with my friends.
Same things happened, after work, go back home... SLEEP!!

And now if you ask me... what memories did I have when I was studying account.
I would just tell you "NOT AT ALL"

DO YOU REALLY WANT TO LIVE IN THIS WAY?

Although this is not a big deal and not an important memories,
I just wanted it to be our greats time to be gather.
Three years... not very long for us to be gather.
Why don't we cherish it?

14 February 2010

Chinese New Year?

What to say on this day?
Happy? Boring?
I think different people got different feeling of this date.
For me, I'm awaiting for it, but when the day come to,
I feel boring, seems no one date me out.
The whole day just staying at home do nothing.
Can see I'm still got time to update my blog,
now you know how free I am.

The day before CNY, we have a class gathering,
two of my best friends didn't attend the gathering,
because they need to "Balik Kampung".
However, I already know I'll just sitting there and do nothing for the gathering.
After look at my entire old classmate, I felt they look not much changes,
and got different "gang" there, one group left and one group right.
I sit between them, and do not know where to join.
The group sitting at left hand side, definitely I won't join them, because we got no topic to talk to, as in our secondary school also nothing much to talk.
For another group, I'm like feeling shy to join them.
So... At the end I just sitting there and chat with the person who sit in front of me.

  Not all is my classmate, some is from another class...


What is the meaning that we have the gathering together,
but didn't talk to each other?
It is better to have a gathering that is only the friends that we can talk to each other? or gather with closer friends?
We have been same class and study together for few years,
just one year didn't meet up each other and now become no more topic to chat.
And now turn to my college.
We just same class for few month, and some for a year,
if after we going to major our course for following years,
what would it be after we graduated?
Arh... ...
Wrote so many, in the end still come back to the friends topic.
Am I really concerning about it?
I also do not now, just it comes to my mind and no one listen to me,
so... no choice... just can wrote it here.

13 February 2010

College's Friend

Huh... Finally got time to update my blog.
Actually, I have a lot of things wanted to update,
but when I sit in front of my computer and open my blog home,
I will definitely forgot what I wanted to write.
Fine... At least now I remember one.
Although I wrote a similar post before,
just wanted to add more.

That day I got chance to lunch with them,
but I started to feel strange with them,
and not much topic to talk with them...
Although we still crazy as before,
obviously it has big changes between us.

I started to think...
What is friendship?
How to make it last?
Why other people can keep maintained their relationship?
Why some people met up their old friends still got a lot of things to chat?
Arhhhh... ...
I just wanted to have more friends, why it become so difficult for me.
Sometimes I really feel like I am the extra one in this world,
but this thought only will come when I was depressed.
Well... I will try hard to maintain it.
I Love You, All my friendsss...